Thursday, March 5, 2015
It wasn't easy but I am doing better now.
I prayed to receive Jesus as Lord and Savior today. I was afraid about the lack of faith that I had today and everyday since. I have scrupulosity which can be quite scary. I used to have blasphemous thoughts but lately I haven't had blasphemous thoughts. I had thoughts that are about going to Hell. I have done things in the past that I am not proud of. I am here to say that I am not my thoughts so it means that I could be, or should be worried about nothing. I was also depressed today over the lack of love today. I am better now. I wasn't hungry yet I ate like crazy. I didn't follow the plan that I had today. I didn't feeling like cooking anything or feel like eating anything I cooked. It wasn't a good day but I feel so much better now. I am no longer depressed nor do I have the symptoms of scrupulosity. Reading is a great way to distract myself.