I need help

I go for help once a week.  I wonder if I have to go more than once a week.  There are times when it can be paralyzing.  I wonder why they have been created.  I also wonder why God creates them.  I hope to never see another one again.  The crazy thing is that seeing one will crawl on me and that they will harm me.  I hate them and I fear them so much that I cannot even name what they are.  I hallucinate about them.  I wonder if I have to get help for more that once a week.  All I know is that I need help.  I am in hope that I all will be overcome.