I am finally glad...embracing OCD

I am finally glad that all of the confusion about my crush is over.  I feel like a load has been lifted.  It is with smallest thanks to God that that crush is coming to......well, it is weakening.  I am learning to embrace having OCD.  It is hard sometimes knowing that having these thoughts will always be a part of my life no matter what.  I guess why.  Why did it take so long to embrace having obsessive thoughts?  It no longer matters why I have so much insight into a disorder.  Nor does it matter why it took place in the first place.  It only matters that I have it and that now I can embrace it.