I was thinking about this today. Maybe, but I was watching this show about Jewish mothers who adopted or became single mothers the nontraditional way. It was quite an inspiration. I think God was trying to tell me something. It was liberating for me. I often think in terms of "weighty" issues and of living in a fantasy world. I do need to lose weight, but that is not the issue I am thinking about. I want to become a mother. I have thought about what it would be like to become a wife and mother. I do wonder if I am ready however. I am 39 years old and I wondered if life has passed me and why I did not have thoughts about being a mom. What kind of mom would I be? I don't know much about motherhood aside from the fact that I would have to sacrifice everything for a child and that I had role models, namely my own mother. I wonder if God was telling me something all along. I wonder if he were saying to stop thinking of myself and think of the bigger picture. Though I prefer the traditional family with an extended and nuclear family complete with the husband and kids and three generations living in the same roof to help me raise a child, I don't begrudge anyone who is raising a child alone or adopting a child. There are so many children all over the world waiting for someone to take care of them. I would love to raise a child as my own and to love, protect, nourish, and provide as well as sacrifice for them. Motherhood is a beautiful thing.