Reflections of last night

Last night, I prayed to my heart's content, and then I messed up.  Wow.  I don't feel so good about that.  I have made bad choices at times but I do feel guilty about that one.  I feel like a total hypocrite especially with this particular sin.  I remember having this issue when I was a child.  I find myself fascinated by this particular issue and its specifics.  I had no idea that it would be as bad as it was last night.  I find myself hating what I did and trying to shield myself lately.  I am supposed to abstain from the appearance of all evil and last night, I failed.  I am not happy with myself about that.