I told my mom about my obsessions and it felt good. However, I felt like my obsession is on my mind I do believe that he is so hot regardless of what he looks like. He does need therapy like I do and a stylist though. It is as if I want to be best friend. I have thoughts about him that a Christian is not supposed to have. I feel pretty good today as I don't have many thoughts about him. However, though he hasn't been in my dreams, I can say that I woke up and felt pretty good. However, I woke up to another thought but it wasn't so bothersome. What were to happen if I were to meet him? I was afraid of what he would eventually say. He was smoking a cigarette and he knew my name. It was as if he knew that I was stalking him or wanting to meet him. That is something I don't want. I am scared of meeting him and I don't want him to curse me out, so the meeting would be out of the question. I will always have questions about whatever obsessive thoughts come to mind, but I guess the answers no longer matter. In the grand scheme of things, what is real really counts.