Mickey Rourke is an obsession of mine. I need help and I need help badly. I feel like I am going crazy. I could be going crazy. I am trying to be stable this week, but it has been very hard. I feel like going home and just give up. I know, I know, I am home, but it is just like a figure of speech. I wish I could just go away. I realize that I need a hobby instead of living in a fantasy world.
I am thankful for all of the advice that I have been given. This is an honor that they were so nice to me. I will talk to my counselor about this. Re-directing my thoughts haven't always been so easy. It is quite confusing at one time. I am not confusing myself any longer because I don't feel that it is a good thing to have an obsession on any actor. I am brave enough to put myself out there and say that I might be going crazy. I know I would take pity or at least relate to someone who was obsessed like I am.
I was even obsessed with others, yet they come and go. I know I will never meet him or get to know him. I know he isn't as good looking as he once was. I know that he never died on the cross for me. However, it seems that my brain doesn't register that sometimes. I wonder what I should say to God about this. What should I say to God about this? What should I do? Is there any other advice that I should take to heart? Those are questions that I need to be asking. I just cannot take it anymore. When will it all pass? I cannot wait much longer.