Manic state

As a person who is bipolar, I may actually be in a manic state.  I have disturbing sleep and I am out of control.  Okay, I feel out of control.  I feel like I need someone, or something to reel me in.  I am not feeling that well, yet physically I am fine.  I sometimes wake up with having an obsessive thought like I did last night.  I fear that my ocd will worsen if something doesn't happen soon.  I remember 2007 and how bad it was.  It was so bad that I wanted to turn myself in to a mental hospital.  It was time consuming and my health coincidentally grew worse.  I still am suffering from the effects of my health being in decline to this day.  I hate having these thoughts.  I just wish I had a day where those thoughts were nonexistent.