I hope that I am just bloated. I have gotten so out of shape I can barely move. I don't know what is really wrong with me. I wish that I written an entry yesterday but alas, I fell asleep and didn't wake up until some time after 4:00 AM. That is just my luck. I hate that I am having such difficulty losing weight. I need help.
I have PCOS and that makes things even harder than I am making it I guess. How do I get over a sluggish metabolism? That is something that worries me. I don't want to stay this weight. For years I stayed at a certain weight only to be content then to gain more weight, like I am now. It took me a while to realize that this will become a cycle if I don't do something about it.
I feel like giving up but I realize that it is not the right thing to do. I feel bad for wanting to give up but I see those who have an inability to walk even the shortest distances and I feel even worse. It is so sad to watch but they are on an inspiration to me. I am not over 400-500 pounds, but being overweight is not healthy. I am scared for my future and not just my health.
I have even thought about weight loss surgery. I need, desire, and want to change. I have thought about weight loss surgery and even weighed the costs but I am still a bit apprehensive. I realize that I have to take a course of action or I will be unable to move or lack the ability to breathe properly. I am thankful that I can breathe and walk, but lack the ability to do other things other people take for granted.
I am about 5'2" tall and weigh more than 300 lbs. This means I have a high BMI thus being at a great risk for a myriad of health problems, some of which I have. I have worked and worked and failed and failed. Maybe I should start giving myself some advice.