Right now, I just don't feel like it. That is not a good feeling to have. I am not proud of having those feelings but I am down and I am feeling down. I have been suffering from back pain and I wish I could just get over it. I have a degenerative disc condition. It is time for me to lose weight. I am scared. Putting things into action is in itself scary. However, with fear comes rewards. I cannot believe I just wrote that. Maybe it is a godly fear I am referring to. I hope that it is. Right now I don't feel that I have a godly fear but a real fear of failure. I would like to overcome it, and that is for sure.