I have accepted the fact that the man I "love" will never meet me. When if he did? I have focused too much time on him and not enough on God. God is real. My total obsession is not based on reality. The man that I "love" is no longer with us. I feel like I am going crazy over this man. I have at one time focused on this man more than I have focused on serving and loving the Lord. That is a sad reality I must face. I don't mean to sound disrespectful as I write this, but that is how I feel. I will never get to know him. That is the sad part. From what I have read about my "love", he was good and very intelligent. There was a sadness in his eyes I can tell. I can help but want to hug him and talk to him. It is so sad that I cannot to him. If I were to meet him., what would I say? How would I react? How do I tell him that I care? It is so sad that I don't know him truly, nor will I get to know the true person.