Saturday, August 9, 2014
Light bulb moment
I am clueless once again. What happened to my motivation and my desire? Did I have said desire the whole time? It is a personal cliche but I feel like that ever-spinning hamster in his little wheel. That poor thing never seems to stop. I am glad to have said never seems because I don't know when a hamster begins and when it stops. Unlike a hamster however, I feel like I am rushing myself. I don't have much time or energy, so the urgency was there. Also, the frustration came along with the urgency. This is not a good feeling to have. I have been overwhelmed and the real reason was hard for me to see. It was right under my nose or rather looking in the mirror. It is me. I am not blaming anyone or anything else but me. I think it is time that it is time to get motivated and to just get over it. I have been like an unregenerate baptized person. Baptism is great but without being regenerated or saved, I will just come out of the pool wet. That is how my life has been. I have physically doing some of the right things but I have produced undesired or no results. It is time to do the most important thing first and get saved, for only saved people get baptized.