I realize that I need to take a long, hard look at my life. I know that I have written various posts and said various prayers, but I have come to realize that I have to take stock of my life or else I will be stuck or worse.
I have been on meds for a long time for a variety of conditions. It has been rough because it can be frustrating, but they are necessary for me to function. I am overweight and I am a diabetic who is diagnosed as having PCOS. I admit that I have not been taking care of myself over the years.
I wonder if I could accept the fact that I have bipolar disorder, then why is it so hard to have to accept that I have OCD. Having OCD is no joke. I have dealt with it, but that is all I had to do. My response has always been "I can't take it anymore". How to let the thoughts pass or embrace that I have these thoughts is very hard.
As mentioned earlier, I am overweight. I have gained a lot of weight back and now I wonder how much of a toll my weight has taken. I want, need, and desire to lose weight. The problem is, I have no clear set goals. I have a lot of issues to deal with. I need to take a lot of time to take stock of my life. I need, want, and desire to change.