Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Caring what others believe and being honest
I hope that I am an honest, truthful person. The truth of the matter is, I am not the most honest person there is. Ironically I am being honest because I have admitted this. I repent of this. I have spent my life caring what others think for so long I have even said that at one time, I had to lie to be believed. It is sick and it is sad. I didn't have to lie to be believed. I didn't have to lie period. There is nothing greater than being honest. Honest people are trustworthy people who are respected for that reason. I am more trustworthy and I earned of others. But have I ? Have I really? I feel like even one mistake would cause one to be untrustworthy. I had to earn the respect of others. The past is something that is either ironically a blessing or the past has also been a curse because of a personal flaw. I have learned to be an honest person, but I am not sure that even at my age, I have earned the respect of some. I wonder now if there is a difference between earning the respect of others or outright giving my life to others because I care so much of others think. It is a rough and sad way to live. I realize that that is what wrong with me. I have been stressed about this for a while now. Now I believe that honesty is the best policy not only to the human, but also to God.