"No Woman, No Cry", by Bob Marley (RIP)

No, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry.

'Cause - 'cause - 'cause I remember when a we used to sit
In a government yard in Trenchtown,
Oba - obaserving the 'ypocrites - yeah! -
Mingle with the good people we meet, yeah!
Good friends we have, oh, good friends we have lost
Along the way, yeah!
In this great future, you can't forget your past;
So dry your tears, I seh. Yeah!

No, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry. Eh, yeah!
A little darlin', don't shed no tears:
No, woman, no cry. Eh!

Said - said - said I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown, yeah!
And then Georgie would make the fire lights,
I seh, logwood burnin' through the nights, yeah!
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge, say,
Of which I'll share with you, yeah!
My feet is my only carriage
And so I've got to push on through.
Oh, while I'm gone,
Everything's gonna be all right!
Everything's gonna be all right!
Everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
Everything's gonna be all right!
Everything's gonna be all right-a!
Everything's gonna be all right!
Everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
Everything's gonna be all right!

So no, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry.
I seh, O little - O little darlin', don't shed no tears;
No, woman, no cry, eh.

No, woman - no, woman - no, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry.
One more time I got to say:
O little - little darlin', please don't shed no tears;
No, woman, no cry.

"No" by Meghan Trainor

I think it's so cute and I think it's so sweet
How you let your friends encourage you to try and talk to me
But let me stop you there, oh, before you speak

Nah to the ah to the no, no, no
My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no
My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no

First you gonna say you ain't runnin' game, thinkin' I'm believing every word
Call me beautiful, so original, telling me I'm not like other girls
I was in my zone before you came along, now I'm thinking maybe you should go
Blah, blah, blah, I be like nah to the ah to the no, no, no

All my ladies, listen up
If that boy ain't giving up
Lick your lips and swing your hips
Girl all you gotta say is

My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no
My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no

Thank you in advance, I don't wanna dance (nope)
I don't need your hands all over me
If I want a man, then I'mma get a man
But it's never my priority
I was in my zone, before you came along, don't want you to take this personal
Blah, blah, blah, I be like nah to the ah to the no, no, no

All my ladies, listen up
If that boy ain't giving up
Lick your lips and swing your hips
Girl all you gotta say is

My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no
My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no

I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
(nah to the ah to the, no, no, no)
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
(nah to the ah to the, no, no, no)

All my ladies, listen up
If that boy ain't giving up
Lick your lips and swing your hips
Girl all you gotta say is

My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no
My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go
Need to let it go
Nah to the ah to the no, no, no

I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Untouchable, untouchable
I'm feeling
Nah to the ah to the, no, no, no

All Night Long by Demi Lovato with Missy Elliott and Timbaland

I love the way you're talking
I'm loving what you're doing boy
I don't fall easy often
I've never had a love like you before

I like you, put your number, put your number
In my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah
You heard me right so, call me, call me
When you're all alone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone

Don't make plans
Come on with me, we'll stay up all night long
I want you, and I want you bad
Let's keep the party going all night long

Let's keep the party going all night long (hey)
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
A-a-a-all night

I'm on another planet
I'm in another universe
You may not understand it
Sooner or later baby you will learn

I like you, put your number, put your number
In my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah
You heard me right so, call me, call me
When you're all alone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone, lone

Don't make plans
Come on with me, we'll stay up all night long
I want you, and I want you bad
Let's keep the party going all night long

Let's keep the party going all night long (hey)
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
A-a-a-all night

We could party all night, night wanna spend a night, night
Will you be my type by the end of the night, we could pillow fight
Your Missy's real nice, come closer, 'cause I don't bite
You talking how I like, you play daddy, I play wife

I-I-I'm so alone, no-no-no one is home
I got your, got your na-na-number in my telephone
Wanna wanna wanna be your girl, wanna wanna wanna be my man
Boy we can hold hands, write our names in the sands
It's the weekend, don't make plans

Party's hot, when you're here
At the club, we don't care
We gonna set it off, we gonna set it off

Party's hot, when you're here
At the club, we don't care
We gonna set it off, we gonna set it off

Don't make plans
Come on with me, we'll stay up all night long
I want you, and I want you bad
Let's keep the party going all night long

Let's keep the party going all night long (hey)
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
All night long (hey), all night long (hey), all night, all night
A-a-a-all night

"Reach Out I'll be There" by the Four Tops

Now if you feel that you can't go on (can't go on)

Because all of your hope is gone (all your hope is gone)

And your life is filled with much confusion (much confusion)

Until happiness is just an illusion (happiness is just an illusion)

And your world around is crumbling down, darlin'

(Reach out) Come on girl reach on out for me

(Reach out) Reach out for me

Hah, I'll be there with a love that will shelter you

I'll be there with a love that will see you through

When you feel lost and about to give up (to give up)

'Cause your best just ain't good enough (just ain't good enough)

And your feel the world has grown cold (has grown cold)

And your drifting out all on your own (drifting out on your own)

And you need a hand to hold, darlin'

(Reach out) Come on girl, reach out for me

(Reach out) Reach out for me

Hah, I'll be there to love and comfort you

And I'll be there to cherish and care for you

(I'll be there to always see you through)

(I'll be there to love and comfort you)

I can tell the way you hang your head (hang your head)

You're not in love now, now you're afraid (you're afraid)

And through your tears you look around (look around)

But there's no peace of mind to be found (no peace of mind to be found)

I know what your thinking

You're a loner, no love of your own, but darling

(Reach out) Come on girl reach out for me

Reach out, just look over your shoulder

I'll be there to give you all the love you need

And I'll be there you can always depend on me

I'll be there

Rest in peace, Prince

 "When Doves Cry"

 "The Most Beautiful Girl In The World"

U Got The Look

My autobiography part 2, (at least a part of it)

Anyways, I don't have the social life that I would like to have.  However, I am proud to have the comforts of home, health (what I have), and love.  That is something I am thankful for.  This morning I was reading up an article about racism and how it permeates every aspect of our lives.  I began to look forward to Jesus' return.  Without Him, I believe that there would be no hope.  Racism will come to an end.  Sadly, I have no idea how to become a salt and light to the world.  I have had this feeling for years that I need to carry the burden of the world on my shoulders, whether it is personal relationships or infidelity.

I have had thoughts about infidelity for many years now and though it has gotten easier, I am not cured. It is discouraging to know that I will never be cured.  I did pray for a cure, however.  I also had obsessive thoughts (and obsessions), about other people, namely famous people, living or dead, other countries and their issues, politics, and I have the fear of going to Hell.  I have had fears of getting hit, yelled at, or that something bad will happen to me.  Sometimes the anxiety is more intense.

I often don't know what to do, or say, but now I have finally realized that I need to see the obsessions and compulsions differently.  I have noticed that what is mundane becomes exaggerated.  I have even written stories about them.  Of course, they mirror my thoughts, but I become anxious even judgmental with people who do wrong, despite the fact that that is what I do.  It is as if I am a hypocrite.  How do I get to the point of acceptance?  Right now, I am starting to understand.  I am glad that things haven't worsened, though it took many years to do so.

My Autobiography, Part 1 ( at least a part of it)

I am a person who loves life but has yet to live it.  I feel like I have been held back.  It is as if the world has passed me by.  Maybe it has and now I have to look in the mirror.  I am a part of the world but I have to make my own path.  This world is made just for me.  Time waits for no one.  I feel like at times I have no time.  I am at an age where I think I'm young, and want to be young.  I cannot go back to my teens, 20s, and 30s.  I am a woman over 40 and have been that way for only a few months.  I wish I had learned a lot more back then than I do now.  Maybe now at 41, I wouldn't feel like I did at 31.

I know that life is really what one makes of it.  I have made myself and my life miserable.  I feel like I have lived a miserable existence.  I have often felt that there is nothing I can really do about it outside of the outside help.  Happiness I guess does come from within.  I have not been happy for a long time now. The truth is, I have allowed health problems to hold me back.  I am an obese diabetic who fills her days fighting anxiety and mood swings.  I know exactly how I got there and the reason is often mindlessness.