Today was a good day. I was tired however because I have been up since around 4:30 this morning. This is one of those times when I surprise even myself. I cannot believe that I have been up this long and I am not sleepy...not yet. It is past 8:00 pm. Sometimes, I don't know my own strengths. I think that I am a person who needs to affirm myself more. I like who I am, but there are things I like to change or at least adjust.
My weight has a lot to do with it. I once weighed over 300 pounds and I was self conscious about my looks. I still have that self consciousness. I have also learned to affirm myself. I have been under a lot of stress for a long time and it felt good that I am not under that kind of stress at this present moment. The fact that I lost weight and the fact that I am home and not tired makes me feel good.
It is unusual that i have not taken a nap today. It is a great break from the usual grind of waking up early in the morning and taking a long, long nap in the afternoon. I feel like sometimes I wasted time napping though it provides a moment of clarity once I wake up. If I could take back some of that nap time from over the years, then I would. What I could be doing? I don't know, but at least it would be something that is more productive.
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