Beauty

I wondered now if the real reason I was going to lose weight was so that I can feel better about myself.  I have issues with having low self-esteem and it is a plague that I wish I could be cured of right away.  It has been bothering me for years.  I have been looking at pics and drawings of overweight people and they have inspired me.  Beauty come in all forms, sizes, shapes, and colors.  We often judge a book by its cover too much.  Many assume that a fat person eats junk food, has poor hygiene, is lazy, and has low self-esteem.

Anyone who is willing to pose nude has got to have some courage somewhere.  I don't advocate pornography; I am advocating artistic and tasteful nudes.  I have been looking at Leonard Nimoy's pics and I see women who are larger as beautiful human beings.  Everyone has someone who they are attracted to, but to mistreat a person who a person finds unattractive is nothing short of a sin.  It is wrong.  The truth is, almost no one fits the Eurocentric standard of beauty placed on Americans.  Most men would have to work hard at looking like Randy Orton; most women would have to work extra hard to look like a supermodel.  Most people don't look like Randy Orton or a supermodel and that is okay.  There is nothing wrong with that. 

Being a fat person myself, I have projected my insecure feelings about being overweight to others and that is just as wrong.  I didn't want to admit it, but it is true.  I only see a certain body type as beautiful and often feel sorry for the person who looks most like me.  I do get the pretty face, but need to lose weight comments.  I have been made fun of.  I have been judged and called names.  It is cruel and hurtful and I don't wish those things on anyone.  I for one live in a cruel, cold society in which it seems I don't belong just because of my body type.  I am an alternative.  I am a real woman with full lips, a wide nose, and have dark skin.  I live in a society of size 2s with preferably thinner physiques, longer hair, and lighter to tan skin and those women are considered beautiful.

I prayed that I no longer have those issues.  I know I needed to change.  I needed to redefine the definition of beauty.  Is beauty about the inner man?  Is it about the outer man?  Is it both?  Judging a book by its cover has always occurred, yet do we often consider the inner beauty of man?  I don't think we do, until someone shows them who they really are.  When a person shows who they really are, they no longer become beautiful.  A person who is physically attractive who is rude, self-centered, dishonest, and ill-mannered is not a beautiful person in my eyes.  On the other hand, a person who has stretchmarks, is short, and has a heavier body type who is well-mannered, polished, kind, and generous is beautiful in my eyes.  One doesn't have to look perfect to be beautiful.  Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder yet beauty isn't always subjective and hopefully I have shown that.