I have a crush on a man who I think he was and still is handsome. He is older, but there is a certain level of sexiness about him. The problem is, I will never meet the guy. Maybe that is a good thing as he is an actor that I will never, ever meet.
I realize that the crushes that I have on men have told me a few things: 1) I am bi-curious, not bisexual
2) I needed to know the difference between a crush and an obsession.
I now realize that I am obsessed with this guy, which is what I am afraid of. I was obsessed with a guy who has disrespected me in college. I thought I was in love with this guy, but it was a crush that turned into an obsession. Crushes don't hurt, but obsessions do. That is the big difference.
Crushes aren't degrading, but obsessions can be. I am obsessed with this actor but I don't have posters of him on my wall or anything like that. I just like to look at him and such. Maybe I am overwhelmed with this.
My crush/obsession woke me up. Huh?
I had a good night's sleep and all of a sudden I woke up with images of him on my mind. Crushes are not troubling but obsessions are. I guess because I was in a manic state that would make the obsession much much worse. Crushes are more like fantasies while obsessions carry over into the real thing.
It makes me muse on how I would handle myself in a relationship. I am single so I don't have much experience in a relationship. I would know what not to do in a relationship. I have not stalked this actor and nor would I go to jail for anyone. Mentally and physically, I am doing just fine.
No comments:
Post a Comment