This morning

I am tired this morning.  In fact, I woke up with a thought about being bullied.  I was bullied when I was younger and it is hard.  The thoughts say one thing but I remember things differently.  I feel horrible about myself right now.  I do wonder if Satan is winning the battle.  It is a hard battle.  The thoughts come upon me suddenly and it is a battle that I would like to win.  I felt like giving up.  Right now, I feel like giving up and throwing in the towel.  Is Satan the one bullying me or am I making too much out of this?  Am I giving Satan too much credit?