Monday, December 31, 2012

Whatever happened to chivalry and being respectful?

I do believe that we live in a society where looks, social status, self-satisfaction, and sexuality have become more important than character, faith, love, modesty, and dignity. We have become judgemental, disrespectful, less than respectable, crass, vulgar, and just plain immoral. I was just wondering if you have something to add about it. Maybe I just have opinions about things or the fact that I would like to have a family of my own one day do play a role in it. It could also be that in the past I have tried to avoid the issue of women's infidelity altogether. Not because I think women are more moral, but because I have noticed that many women, espcially between 18-44 have become more crass, vulgar, less gracious, thankful, and humble. I am personally concerned that we have a generation or two in which many women care more about how many men they have, have become less nurturing,less loving, less faithful and dignified, and extremely troubled, unappreciative, and arrogant. Sorry to be so harsh, but that is true. Meanwhile, we have a generation or two of men who are either mysoginist barbarians, ignorants, feminized, suicidal, angry, entitled, dead, or in jail. Maybe I am being harsh or oversimplifying things, but I guess that is why my obsessions center around sex and religion. I have spent time trying to put my troubles and obsessions in perspective and finding some distractions along the way. Over the last few days things have improved. My concerns are not as strong as they once were. I cannot believe all that I have written in that in a way, they help to explain why I have this disorder or at least these obsessions.

Is chvalry dead?

Makes me wonder.  What is happening to this world?

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Give Thanks to the Lord


Give Thanks to the Lord
For his mercy endures forever
Give Thank to the Lord
For He is the Father
Give thanks to the Lord
For He is our Savior
Give thanks to the Lord
For He is our Provider and Healer
Give thanks to the Lord
For He is the One who sacrificed for us
Give thanks to the Lord
For He never changes
Give thanks to the Lord
Thank you, Lord, in Jesus' name

Friday, December 28, 2012

Losing weight is hard

It is so hard sometimes to try to lose weight.  I have lost a lot f weight, at least for me.  I am doing okay with it.  I realize that I need to take better care of myself and learn to eat better foods.  I also need to do a better job of holding myself accountable.  With the health issues that I have, I wish I had done this a long time ago.  I am doing well other than that.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Having OCD sucks

Having OCD sucks.  It seems that at times I take pleasure in those thoughts because it calms my mind down and it answers those questions that I ask.  Maybe it is about asking for reassurance which is what I have done often.  I have been diagnosed as having OCD as late as 2010.  I felt relieved but it was one in a set of problems that I have.  My problems are about moral and religious issues.  I sometimes wonder if God really saved me or if I am lost.  Moral issues include infidelity and just doing the right thing.  I always have these questions in my head that in my mind require an answer.  I hate uncertainty and I just can't take it.  I wish I never had it and I felt very lonely because I don't have all of the answers and I don't know anyone personally who has the same problem.

Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

I know Christmas is over, but here are a few of my favorite Christmas songs





I tend to have Christmas songs in my head.  Yet even though today is December 26, I am still in the Christmas spirit.  I know that Christmas is over, I hate to let it go.