A blessing and discovery

Being in denial makes things much worse.  God is the Deity of discovery.  I am ever thankful.  I realize that I want to know that I am a Creation who has no idea who I am.  I want to lose 125 pounds.  That is the goal that I want, but all else is hard.  So far, I have lost an average of 10 lbs. I am and will be okay.  However, I am so tired of being unhealthy.  I felt like that at some moments, my health has been in decline.  I have a list of health problems that has "solved" through a healthy diet and exercise.  I feel so bad that I did not continue.  Often I feel guilty about things.  Weighing over 300 pounds is one of those things.  I gained a ton of weight since high school and I felt like I could have done something about it.  I didn't realize that I had Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, in which all of the symptoms began to worsen.  They all came suddenly upon me all at once.  It wasn't easy, but I realize that things could be much, much worse.  Thankfully, things are now in better control

In denial and in need of some real, personal goals

I have something to confess.  I am in denial when it comes to my weight.  I have seen reflections and have taken selfies concerning my looks.  I am and have remained self-conscious about my weight. I don't think I am attractive enough mostly because of my weight.  I weighed over 300 lbs. and I realized that I don't want to remain complacent at my weight.  This has not been easy nor has it been that hard to admit.  I don't want to spend time posting those pictures because I have a fear that others will laugh at me.  I don't feel so great about myself because I am so self-conscious.  I don't have a proportional, curvy body and that is why I feel so self-conscious.  I feel like I don't have a womanly shape to my body.  I just don't see myself as a beautiful woman.  I know if I were thinner, things would change.  That is what I don't want to admit.  Thinner people can and do in some cases have it easier in terms of how others view them and their overall health.  I take too much time listening to the world instead of listening to the Voice of God.  He has shown me that I was in denial about myself and my weight.

While it is true that I listen to the voices of the world, I have gotten complacent. I am complacent, but not comfortable being clinically obese.  I haven't been treated badly or anything like that, but I realize that there are things that I would like to be able to do and clothes I will be able to wear if I were thinner.  Others who are thinner and healthier tend to take things for granted. However, I cannot and don't.  It is not easy always being overweight.  Yes, it is true that I don't like living in a world where I would be judge because of my size and yes, it is true that I don't like the messages the negative and cruel messages the world has about overweight and obese people.  Those are true. However, I want to lose weight and not for the judgments.  I want to lose weight not for society.

I admit that my reasons can be shallow.  I most of all want to lose weight because I want to fit in my clothes better, I want to look better and feel better about myself.  I am not saying that only thin people are beautiful or have high self-esteem but I have to be honest.  I have to no longer be in denial. I realize that I am being hypocritical and even judgmental, but I also realize that I am a person who sees the beauty in others but can barely see it in myself.  Now I realize that I  need a change in my mindset and I need a change in my overall goals.  I also realize that I even have my own standard of what is beautiful despite what I just wrote earlier.  Now I am confused.  I just have no real clue what is truly beautiful and what I, Gail Gerald, truly want.  As I write this, I find myself somewhat confused and in wonderment.  Why is that, I wonder?  My guess is because of the anxiety that I have as far as self-discovery goals.  I really don't know exactly what I want to do.  I want to listen to my own voice and to God's voice.  What is my standard of beauty?  How much do I want to lose?  Who am I, really?  What are my real-life core goals?  Those are the questions that I have to ask myself before I have to and need to start any weight loss "program" for myself.

"Speak to my Heart" by Donnie McClurkin

Keep on talkin' to me, keep on talkin' to me
Keep on talkin' to me, keep on talkin' to me
Keep on talkin' to me, keep on talkin' to me
Keep on talkin' to me

Speak to my heart, Holy Spirit
Give me the words that will bring new life
Words on the wings of the morning, the dark night will fade away
If You speak to my heart now

Speak to my heart, Holy Spirit
Message of love, love to encourage me
Lifting my heart from despair, how You love, love me, and care for me
Speak to my heart now, oh Lord

Speak to my heart, Holy Spirit
Give me the words that will bring new life
Words on the wings of the morning, the dark nights will fade away
Speak to my heart

Speak to my heart, Holy Spirit
Message of love to encourage me
Lifting my heart from despair, how You love me and care for me
Speak to my heart

Speak to my heart, that's what I want You to do
Speak to my heart, 'cause I'm waiting to hear from You
Speak to my heart, that's what I want You to do
Speak to my heart

Speak to my heart, Lord, give me Your holy word
If I can hear from You, then I don't know what to do
I won't go alone, I'll never go on my own
Just let Your spirit guide and let Your word abide, say

Speak to my heart, Lord, give me Your holy word
If I can hear from You, then I don't know what to do
I won't go alone, Lord, I'll never go on my own
Just let Your spirit guide and let Your word abide

Speak to my heart, Lord, give me your holy word
If I can hear from You, then I don't know what to do
I won't go alone, I'll never go on my own
Just let Your spirit guide and let Your word abide

Speak to my heart, Lord, give me Your holy word
If I can hear from You, then I don't know what to do
I won't go alone, I'll never go on my own
Just let Your spirit guide and let Your word abide

Speak to my heart, Lord, give me Your holy word
If I can hear from You, then I don't know what to do
I won't go alone, I'll never go on my own
Just let Your spirit guide and let Your word abide

Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, yeah, yeah
Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk
Keep on talkin' to me, keep on talkin' to me, yeah, yeah
Keep on talkin' to me, talk to me, talk

One of Great Beauty

Heavenly Father, 

The picture is one of great beauty.  It is also one of great relaxation.  There is nothing like the art created by the Ultimate Artist, The Lord.  Lord, I thank You that You are the Creation and that we are Your creation.  Give us mercy to help in time of grace.  I thank You for that mercy and grace.  I praise You, for You are the only one who can speak to us.  I praise You that You are the One and Only True and Living God.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Listen and repent

I found myself listening to some calming music, from gospel to pop to opera.  If only I can be less manic and put some of the words into action.  I meant this through gospel and the word.  God is indeed faithful and our Savior.  He is my provider.  Right now, I am to Donnie McClurkin's "Great is Your Mercy."  This song brings me down to earth so to speak.  I think it is high time I have been brought to earth so to speak.  I need to repent and repent now.  Today could be the last day on earth.

"I Give Myself Away" by William McDowell

[Chorus x2:]
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me

[Verse 1:]
Here I am
Here I stand
Lord, my life is in your hands
Lord, I'm longing to see
Your desires revealed in me

[Chorus:]
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me

[Verse 2:]
Take my heart
Take my life
As a living sacrifice
All my dreams all my plans
Lord I place them in your hands

[Chorus x2:]
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me

[Bridge x7:]
My life is not my own
To you I belong
I give myself, I give myself to you

Gossip site

Last night I found myself just being a bit too mindful.  It was a manic high, a high that I don't want.  Being bipolar can be so difficult at times.  The manic highs and the depressives lows are bad enough.  I realize that there are things that I have done that make no sense in the grand scheme of things.  Last night I was so focused on reading from a gossip website that it was as if I wasted a lot of time.  The truth is, I did waste a lot of time.  That was a moment of taking me back to old school that I do not want.  I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder since my teens and it hasn't always been so easy.  There were times when I even wondered if I was bipolar.  The truth is, I am.  I am not ashamed of being bipolar since it is not my fault. There are times when I feel guilty and recently has been no exception.  It was as if I "fell off" somewhat. That was and still is how I feel.  I just haven't been concentrating as much as I should.  I believe that I need to relax and just be better focused.

Distraction is stressful, yet I realize I need to be thankful....

I find myself right now being distracted.  I have been distracted by the world and the cares of this life.  The Lord is my Center, not shall be or was.  He is my Center.  Yes, He is the Same God for all time, but I believe that focusing on the now is about not being mindful, but to be spiritually aware, in a Christian sense. I realize that mindfulness works for others, but is it Christian?  Is it in the Bible?  I have not been focusing on the Lord unless I am in need.  I take to time to say, "Thank You." to the Lord.  He gave His Son's life for us and rose Him from the dead.  That is thanks enough.  He died for our sins and He saved me and forgave me. I am just thankful.  I regret not always being so thankful.  I am not suffering, though it seems I am that way. Mental and physical illness are hard to deal with, but I survived and continue to survive.  I am still standing, no matter if my back is hurting, or not.  I have a hormonal condition that has helped me to see what is important concerning my health.  Also, I have prayed often to be cured of mental and emotional issues.  It is amazing that one person can go through all of it.  Yet still, I consider myself a blessed woman, and for that, I am grateful.  It can easy to be distracted, and I get distracted quite often because I often fail to realize or better yet, fail to see, that there is Something or Someone greater than all of my own health problems. I no longer have to hold on to the stress, for He is greater than those things.  For that, I say, "Thank You." again to the Lord.

Being thoughtful...being mindful

Being thoughtful is much easier than being mindful.  Interestingly enough, I wasn't sure if there was even a difference between the two.  I have spent some time thinking about that different.  Being thoughtful is about taking the time putting a thought or two as far what I can do for my fellow man or woman.  Okay one can be thoughtful about oneself.  Mindfulness is about one's surroundings.  That is reality when it comes to mindfulness.  I just wish that I knew the difference between the two.  However, it seems that both of them come from within, mindfulness is directly about one seeing their own surroundings, not their own anxiety or reality.  All truth is truth.  That to me is what mindfulness is all about.  It also seems that being thoughtful takes practice because it is about not just oneself but what it is about giving to one's fellow man or woman. Being thoughtful comes from within and it is the reason for why gifts such as gratitude and kindness exist.  I hope that I have written and given the correct definitions of being thoughtful and being mindful.

Being mindful

Tonight I am ever mindful of the fact that I can be obsessed with nearly anything.  Tonight it was people being recorded fighting online.  Last night, it was about movies.  Sometimes I wonder that this too shall pass. It eventually does, but it is not easy being so mindful as tonight has shown.  I feel so bad now.  All I had to do was to be mindful of my surroundings.  This is a lesson that I could carry throughout the rest of my life.

An Chailin alainn - Dulaman by Celtic Woman

A 'non mhn , sin anall na fir shir
A mhithairin mhn , cuir na roithlan go dt m

[Curf:]
Dlamn na binne bu, dlamn Gaelach
Dlamn na farraige, b'fhearr a bh in irinn

T ceann bu ir ar an dlamn gaelach
T dh chluais mhaol ar an dlamn maorach

Brga breaca dubha ar an dlamn gaelach
T bearad agus tris ar an dlamn maorach

[Curf 2x]

Gide a thug na tre th? arsa an dlamn gaelach
Ag sir le do non, arsa an dlamn maorach

Rachaimid chun Niir leis an dlamn gaelach
Ceannimid brga daora ar an dlamn maorach

[Curf]

chuir m scala chuici, go gceanninn cor d
'S'n scal a chuir s chugam, go raibh a ceann cortha

[Curf]

Cha bhfaigheann t mo 'non, arsa an dlamn gaelach
Bheul, fuadidh m liom , arsa an dlamn maorach

Dlamn na binne bu, dlamn Gaelach

[Curf]

Dlamn na binne bu, dlamn Gaelach
Dlamn na farraige, b'fhearr a bh, b'fhearr a bh
Dlamn na binne bu, dlamn Gaelach
Dlamn na farraige, b'fhearr a bh, b'fhearr a bh
B'fhearr a bh in irinn

[English translation:]

Oh gentle daughter, here come the wooing men
Oh gentle mother, put the wheels in motion for me

[Chorus:]
Seaweed from the yellow cliff, Irish seaweed
Seaweed from the ocean, the best in all of Ireland

There is a yellow gold head on the Gaelic seaweed
There are two blunt ears on the stately seaweed
The Irish seaweed has beautiful black shoes
The stately seaweed has a beret and trousers

[Chorus 2x]

"What are you doing here?" says the Irish seaweed
"At courting with your daughter," says the stately seaweed

I would go to Niir with the Irish seaweed
"I would buy expensive shoes," said the Irish seaweed

[Chorus]

I spent time telling her the story that I would buy a comb for her
The story she told back to me, that she is well-groomed

"Oh where are you taking my daughter?" says the Irish seaweed
"Well, I'd take her with me," says the stately seaweed

Seaweed from the yellow cliff, Irish seaweed

[Chorus]

Seaweed from the yellow cliff, Irish seaweed
Seaweed from the ocean, the best, the best
Seaweed from the yellow cliff, Irish seaweed
Seaweed from the ocean, the best, the best
The best in all of Ireland

My musing about obesity and my being clinically obese

I have felt down this morning.  I woke up around 1:00 AM this morning.  I was watching a TV show about a couple of women who were obese.  Sadly, one of them passed away at a young age.  She was obese and I can only imagine what she went through.  My concern is that I will end up obese to the point where I would have greater health problems including obesity.  Not only did it bummed me out, but it became a source of motivation.  I feel like I need to relax.  I pray for those who not only are going through what I am going through, but for those who are obese.  It is sad that people judge fat and obese people.  I never understood why it is okay to laugh at people because they are fat or obese.  It is not funny because being overweight and obese carry risks such as diabetes and heart disease.  I feel bad for those who are obese, yet I want to lose weight.  At the risk of sounding shallow, I don't want to go through what many of them are going through. It is just sad that people judge others period based on a persons appearance because I feel as if we are all creations of the Lord.  Our bodies are the temples of the Holy Spirit.  Last time I read it, it to me, writes of holiness not of fatness, for a lack of a better term.  Obesity is not healthy and neither is just being overweight or underweight.  They all carry health risks.  However, even if someone is of a healthy weight, someone will be compared as smaller or larger than another person.  That is just the way it is.  It is up to me to carry on the struggle.  It is up to everyone, obese, overweight, or underweight, to take care of our health.  Oh well, that is all I have to write for today,.

"Holiness is What I Long For" by Micah Stampley

Holiness
Holiness
Is what I long for
Holiness
Is what I need
Holiness
Holiness
Is what you want
For me

(Everybody)

Holiness
Holiness
Is what I long for
Holiness
Is what I need
(Ohoh)
Holiness
Holiness
Is what you want
For me

Righteousness
Righteousness
Is what I long for
Righteousness
Is what I need
(That's what I need)
Righteousness
That's what you want
That's what you want
That's what you want
For me
So take my

[Chorus:]
Take my heart
And mold it
Take my mind
Transform it
(Take)
Take my will
Conform it
(To yours)
To yours
To yours
Own

Brokenness
Brokeness
Is what I long for
Brokeness
Is what I need
(Gotta be broken)
Brokeness
Brokenness
That's what you want
For me

[Chorus:]
Take my heart
And mold it
(Take, my mind)
Take my mind
Transform it
(Take my will)
Take my will
Conform it
(Conform my will)
To yours
To yours
Oh, Lord

To yours
To yours
Oh, Lord [3x]

Lead
Holiness
Holiness
Is what I long for
Holiness
Is what I need
(Gotta be holy)
Holiness
Holiness
Is what you want
For me

(Everybody)
Is what you want
For me [3x]

"Friend of Mine" by Dewayne Woods, Dave Hollister, and Anthony Hamilton

Whether come rain or shine – You are a friend of mine.
You stayed right by my side – You are a friend of mine.
Through all my ups and downs – You are a friend of mine.
You kept me on solid ground – You are a friend of mine.

Listen,
Ain't nothing like a true friend – Oh yeah.
Somebody you can truly depend – Oh yeah.
When everybody walks away – Oh yeah.
I know that You will always stay – Oh yeah.

Lord what made You love me so? – You are a friend of mine.
I don't think I'll ever know – You are a friend of mine.
It's like nothing I've felt before – You are a friend of mine.
And You make life worth living for – You are a friend of mine.

I got nothing like a true friend – Oh yeah.
Somebody you can truly depend – Oh yeah.
When everybody walks away – Oh yeah.
I know that You will always stay – Oh yeah.

What a friend we have in Jesus - Jesus.
All our sins and griefs to bear - To bear.
What a privilege to carry - Carry.
Everything to God in Prayer - In Prayer.

A friend
A man who laid down his life
For all of your sins and mine
A love beyond compare
If you've got Jesus
You've got a friend

Ain't nothing like a true friend – Oh yeah.
Somebody you can truly depend – Oh yeah.
When everybody walks away – Oh yeah.
I know that You will always stay – Oh yeah.

Nothing but the blood of Jesus - Jesus.
All of our sins to bear - To bear.
What a privilege to carry - Carry.
Everything to God in Prayer - In Prayer.

Everything to God in Prayer – Oh yeah.
Everything to God in Prayer – Oh yeah.
Everything to God in Prayer – Oh yeah.
Everything to God in Prayer – Oh yeah.

See what a friend we have in Jesus - Jesus.
Every burden you've got he'll bear - To bear.
What a privilege to carry - Carry.
Everything to God in Prayer - In Prayer.

Ain't nothing like a true friend – Oh yeah.
Somebody you can truly depend – Oh yeah.
Everybody you've seen walkin away – Oh yeah.
Watch God, watch God stay – Oh yeah.

This friend I'm talking about is Jesus - Jesus.
Every burden you've got he'll bear - To bear.
All you've got to do is carry - Carry.
Everything to God in Prayer - In Prayer.

You are a friend of mine.

My hair

I just love my hair.  I am just so happy to have hair like mine.  Forget that I have just typed that.  Everyone should be happy just to have hair like theirs.  I sometimes worry about some of my hair because some of it is thinner or shorter than the other.  I would rather be bald all over than to have bald spots.  I just love my hair, as I have mentioned earlier.  This is not the best blog I have written but this is what I get for being so busy and for writing an entry at such short notice.  After all, I have more than one blog.

Dyed hair that I look forward to try

I have purchased two jars of Manic Panic hair dye.  I am not terribly sure how it would turn out, but I hope they would turn out well.  The more I experiment with my hair, the more I want to try new things.  Okay, Manic Panic is not new, nor is the fact that I used it.  It was a reddish color that I have used.  I feel nervous because I look forward to those hair colors showing up at my door step.

"Amazing Grace" by Celtic Woman

Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now am found
T'was blind but now I see

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear
And Grace, my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

Through many dangers, toils and snares
We have already come.
T'was grace that brought us safe thus far
And grace will lead us home,
And grace will lead us home

Amazing grace, Howe Sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now am found
T'was blind but now i see

Was blind, but now I see.

Living on God's timing

I felt okay about things today.  I read this devotional this morning and it provided clarity for me.  I have not fully surrendered to the Lord.  I remember all of the times when there have been setbacks.  However, those setbacks have taught me to be hopeful and patient.  It took me a while to finally realize that.  Rather, it was God who showed me the way.  He was, and is, the reason for peace of mind and clarity.  No matter what stumbling blocks and setbacks we have along the way, God is always there.  It took me long enough. I will not pinch myself.  I realize that I have to live on God's time. God does not live on ours.  I trust the Lord with my heart and leaned not on my understanding.

My "list" of interests

I remember staying up every Tuesday night to watch this telenovela.  "Destinos" has become one of my favorites.  I am not terribly sure what it is about but I believe it is about a family who searches for a family member or something like that.  The truth is, I just love learning Spanish, yet conjugation is very difficult.

The truth of the matter is, I love to cook.  I even wanted to be a chef.  However, it would be hard to be a chef if I can barely boil an egg, even when I follow the instructions.  I don't like boiled eggs that are only soft. I like hard boiled eggs.  They have become a favorite snacks or breakfast food of mine.  I realize that with healthy eating comes more creative ways of cooking.

I do however spend time with trying to at least a do it yourself project.  In my case, it is always about spring cleaning and rearranging a room.  Maybe I could take a class in art or learning how to do things for myself.  It isn't as if there is really nothing to do.

 This video is about the African American quilting interest.  It is an interest in Africanisms, history, the arts, and about crocheting and quilting.  Africanisms are those "traces" of Black American culture that is traced or carried over from Africa.

Being adventurous is not something to shy from.

Not only do I want to lose weight, I also need to lose weight.  It is true that I am overweight, but all of the exercise in the world will not help me with a poor diet.  I admit that I eat a poor diet and I need to fix it.  I seem to have solution after solution after solution.  I have had other things in mind. I want to learn and explore so many things.  The truth is, I haven't done some of those things in years.  All I have seen is an empty life yet when I look around and when I think of it, my life hasn't been empty.  It is just that I want to do more and to be healthy.  I have a few goals in mind but I have not put my mind to them nor have I made those goals come to life therefore.  I am inspired to do something about it, but where do I begin?

My bodily inspirations.

 "Big is Beautiful"

 "Tribute to Glamour and Beauty"

 "Beauty and Curves"

"More Love" by Erica Campbell

More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love

Love don’t find no fold love,
Don’t hear about your flaws
Love don’t handle me its love,
Will be there through it all
Love don’t care where you’re from,
Don’t have to know your name
Love don’t discriminate,
Loves us the same with More love
Hate more, More love
But the ones need More love

More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
My god, more love
We need you
More love

I know you’re tired of this crazy crazy World we live in,
My baby’s dying, oh it’s crying
People with the power, lying
But we’ve got to keep on trying
Together, all, what we need

More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
More love, more love
We need it
More love,
Tell your neighbor
More love,
Say I love you my brother
More love,
And I need you my sister
More love
Heyyy,
More love, more love
Love will never give up
More love
And will never die
More love,
Uhmm, heyyy
What the world needs now is
More love,
Love for the babies we need
More love,
Somebody needs to learn you how to love yourself
More love,
Before you can love anybody else
Come on, love

Love can change you
Uh, love can heal it
And you know it
Why don’t you let love do more?
I believe you can do it
We just need More love!

A flat stomach

I often complain about my flaws, foibles, and failures.  Maybe just maybe I should not complain so much.  It is true that I do not have a flat stomach, it shouldn't be this hard to achieve one.  As a matter of fact, I could use a little bit of motivation.  The last thing I want is something that would cause even greater health problems than I already have.  I know that if I could lose this belly then my health would improve.  I am self-conscious about my appearance.  However, I do wonder if anyone, regardless of their appearance, can be self-conscious.  I don't wish to appear this way because of my weight, but I do wonder if my heart really is in it. It is a silly thing to write, but I don't wish to lose the desire to lose the weight.  In fact, my goal is to keep it simple.  Losing weight and keeping it off should not be this hard, but it is.  I could use a little bit more motivation.

"Don't Give Up" by Yolanda Adams

Visions that can change the world
Trapped inside an ordinary girl
She looks just like me
To afraid to dream out loud

And though it's set for your idea
It won't make sense to everybody
You need courage now
If you're going to persevere

To fulfill your divine purpose
You've gotta answer when you're called
So don't be afraid to face the world
Against all odds

Keep the dream alive don't let it die, if something deep inside
Keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop
And never give up; don't ever give up on you
Don't give up

Every victory comes in time
Work today to change tomorrow
It gets easier
Who's to say that you can't fly?

Every step you take you gets
Closer to your destination
You can feel it now
Don't you know you're almost there?

To fulfill your life's purpose
You've gotta' answer when you're called
So don't be afraid to face the world
Against all odds

Keep the dream alive don't let it die, if something deep inside
Keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop
And never give up; don't ever give up on you

Sometimes life can place a stubborn block in your way
But you've gotta keep the faith
Reap what deep inside your heart
To fly

And never give up
Don't ever give up on you,
Don't give up

Who holds the pieces to complete the puzzle?
The answer that can solve the mystery
The key that can unlock your understanding
It's all inside of you
You have everything you need

So, keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try
Don't stop
And never give up; don't ever give up on you

Sometimes life can place a stubborn block on your way
But you've gotta keep the faith
Bring what's deep inside your heart
To the light

And never give up
Don't ever give up on you
No don't give up
No, no, no, no

Don't give up
Don't give up
Don't give up
Oh, don't, no, no, no, no
Don't, give, up
Songwriters: Harris Iii, James Samuel / Lewis, Terry / Wright, James Quenton / Adams, Yolanda Yvette
Never Give Up lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group

Diabetes prayer

Lord Jesus, I believe that by Your stripes I am completely healed from diabetes. I come against all complications associated with diabetes, such as stroke, blindness, infections, hyperglycemia, hypoglycemia, amputations, neuropathy, heart disease, kidney disease, wounds, gastroparesis and other complications, in the name of Jesus. I come against insulin resistance, in the name of Jesus. Heal my pancreas, Lord Jesus, and every component, which facilitates its proper functioning.

I come against all generational curses of diabetes; I will not suffer the same fate as generations before me. I will live a long and healthy life, in the name of Jesus, to bring Your will for my life to fruition. I will no longer experience lethargy because of uncontrolled diabetes but instead will have boundless energy infused by Your Holy Spirit. In Jeremiah 33:6 You promised, “Behold, I will bring to it health and healing, and I will heal them and reveal to them abundance of prosperity and security.” I proclaim this right now in my life. Thank You Jesus.

Father, I humbly ask that You grant me the discipline needed to take care of myself. Help me to make wise decisions regarding my diet and eating on a timely basis. Grant me the discipline needed to exercise, to sleep sufficiently, and to drink the required amount of water for my body. Father, You made physicians to help me maintain my health, please, bless me with the best medical professionals to help me preserve Your temple. Lord, You also created medicine, supplements, and natural alternatives and I ask that You please grant the physician and myself, the wisdom to know what will promote the best health for me. Please help me to be compliant with the regimen that my physician has prescribed for me.

Thank You Jesus, for bringing healing to my body and I stand on Your Word which states “But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed.” Isaiah 53:5
Amen!

Source:
http://christianstt.com/prayer-diabetes-wound-healing/

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