Does it matter?

Sometimes I don't think that what I try to look for matters.  I have always hated uncertainty.  I am beginning to slowly appreciate uncertainty.  In life I tend to get certain about a lot of things but they don't bother me.  When it comes to issues of infidelity and fiction, why does it matter?  It no longer matters why I have those thoughts.  Trying to make the uncertain certain is a waste of time and energy.  Doing compulsions are also a waste of time and energy.  Maybe that is one of the answers to dealing with and stopping some of the compulsions that I have.  I am reminded that sometimes, it no longer matters.