Happy New Year...2015

 "Auld Lang Syne" by Susan Boyle

Caring what others believe and being honest

I hope that I am an honest, truthful person.  The truth of the matter is, I am not the most honest person there is.  Ironically I am being honest because I have admitted this.  I repent of this.  I have spent my life caring what others think for so long I have even said that at one time, I had to lie to be believed. It is sick and it is sad.  I didn't have to lie to be believed.  I didn't have to lie period.  There is nothing greater than being honest.  Honest people are trustworthy people who are respected for that reason.  I am more trustworthy and I earned of others.  But have I ?  Have I really?  I feel like even one mistake would cause one to be untrustworthy.  I had to earn the respect of others.  The past is something that is either ironically a blessing or the past has also been a curse because of a personal flaw.  I have learned to be an honest person, but I am not sure that even at my age, I have earned the respect of some.  I wonder now if there is a difference between earning the respect of others or outright giving my life to others because I care so much of others think.  It is a rough and sad way to live.  I realize that that is what wrong with me.  I have been stressed about this for a while now.  Now I believe that honesty is the best policy not only to the human, but also to God.

Negativity to positivity

I felt so bad lately since I woke up.  I felt bad about myself and my life.  It does happen quite often I am afraid.  I am here to write that negativity takes away from a person.  It is a drain on one's psyche. Being negative and having negative thoughts are not worth it.  I have been under a lot of stress lately. Well, I am here to write that I am thankful that I am still around to deal with the causes of stress in my life.  I have often felt powerless to do anything about it, but I realize that it takes positivity and a dose of truth to overcome and deal with stress.  Undue stress causes undue pain.

Near Death Experiences

I sometimes wonder how true the experiences of near death experiences are.  I question the validity of some of them.  They do have a common theme or two.  Heaven is a wonderful place.  Meanwhile, Hell is not, this is true.  Some of the details are not biblical.  I can't find anywhere about the demons tormenting people in Hell.  I believe the fact that they are being tormented in the flames and then take part in the Lake of Fire for all eternity is bad enough.  Demons will too be sent there and so will Satan.  All of what I have written is in the Book of Revelation.  There are plenty of videos online about near death experiences.  While they are rather interesting videos, always question their validity against what the scriptures actually say.  That will give a person an idea if a testimony is accurate or not.

The life of a goldfish

May Goldfish rest in peace.  We never had a goldfish to call our own before.  Sadly we never even gave him or her a name.  It is so sad that he or she is gone.  She became ill I guess and she died.  I even prayed for the fish.  It is just so sad and so sobering.  Death does that to a person or animal.

December 26

I usually hate this day of the year.  Christmas is over, but I am alive.  That is all that matters, and for that, I am thankful.

Merry Christmas !

 "We Wish You a Merry Christmas"- Enya

 "What Child is This?" - Andrea Bocelli and Mary J. Blige

 "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen"-Angel Voices

"Angels We Have Heard On High"-Pentatonix

"Little Drummer Boy"- Celtic Woman