High School Dance by The Sylvers

I wonder what it is like going to an actual high school dance.  I never went to the prom, which in those days was a disappointment.  I did go to parties and such at college to more than make up for it.  I just wanted to be a normal kid like everyone else.  I remember that I actually was though I wished often what high school would have been like if I were part of the in-crowd or the one voted "Most Likely To Succeed".  This song, even though it debuted in the 1970s, reminds me of what could have been.  I love this song and that is what it is important.  My life didn't turn out so bad.  It could have been worse, however.

Sly Stallone crush

I have a crush on Sly Stallone.  I fact, I have been watching a few of his movies as of late.  I feel like I am in euphoria every time I see him.  It isn't like my Mickey Rourke crush since I am embracing it.  It will go away soon.  Sly Stallone is not that bad of an actor.  Mickey is the better actor, but Sly is decent.  Anyways, I have nothing more on my mind than...well, being a fan.

Becoming a mother

I was thinking about this today.  Maybe, but I was watching this show about Jewish mothers who adopted or became single mothers the nontraditional way.  It was quite an inspiration.  I think God was trying to tell me something.  It was liberating for me.  I often think in terms of "weighty" issues and of living in a fantasy world.  I do need to lose weight, but that is not the issue I am thinking about.  I want to become a mother.  I have thought about what it would be like to become a wife and mother.  I do wonder if I am ready however.  I am 39 years old and I wondered if life has passed me and why I did not have thoughts about being a mom.  What kind of mom would I be?  I don't know much about motherhood aside from the fact that I would have to sacrifice everything for a child and that I had role models, namely my own mother.  I wonder if God was telling me something all along.  I wonder if he were saying to stop thinking of myself and think of the bigger picture.  Though I prefer the traditional family with an extended and nuclear family complete with the husband and kids and three generations living in the same roof to help me raise a child,  I don't begrudge anyone who is raising a child alone or adopting a child.  There are so many children all over the world waiting for someone to take care of them.  I would love to raise a child as my own and to love, protect, nourish, and provide as well as sacrifice for them. Motherhood is a beautiful thing.

RIP Sage Stallone

I was watching Rocky V recently.  Sage was a good actor.  He was a very attractive man and it is so sad that he has died so young.  I am 39 and he was only 36.  He will never experience middle age or even being a parent or grandparent.  Okay, I don't know if he had kids, but I wonder.  All I could say is what could have been.  I know that last sentence seemed crass, but it is so sad when someone dies so young.

Sylvester Stallone's Still Got It

 Rambo IV

The Expendables  

Grudge Match

Rocky Balboa

How I feel about losing weight

I am reminded of the benefits of weight loss and exercise.  I wonder if weight loss is a rocket science.  Why is it so hard for me to lose weight?  Weight loss is supposed to be hard, not easy.  I feel like giving up, but I will stay.  I am reminded of all of the times when I have lost weight.  I feel like I have been hit with reality.  I don't want to weigh what I weigh right now.  I have gained a few pounds since last week and all of the times that...I don't know.  Despite exercising this morning, I just want to give up, but like I said, I won't.

The End

I believe that all one day will be well.  This weekend I was listening to this guy on the radio about the last days, if we are living in them.  The signs are all around us and I believe that we as believers need to watch for the Lord's return.  I do wonder if prophecy is different for the Jews and Gentiles.  Matthew 24 writes of prophecy for the Jews especially.  However, much of what was said in that chapter as well as 25 could also be written for the Gentiles.  I have had an interest in Bible Prophecy and the End Times for many years.  The most certain answer that I have is that today will be closer to the end than yesterday was.  Tomorrow will be closer to the end than today was too.  I personally look forward to the end as all believers do, for our future will be bright.