Jealousy and True Love

Psalm 31:23

"Love the LORD, all his faithful people! The LORD preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full."

Love is something that is not jealous.  Furthermore, jealousy is about fear and about coveting.  I guess.  I am trying to be wise.  Furthermore, I am trying to be right about the interpretation of God's Word.  One of the worst thing anyone can do is to misinterpret scripture.  That I believe is why false prophets and false teachers are flourishing in the planet.  They deceive the flock by twisting the Word of God for often times financial gain.  Where is the love in deception, much less jealousy?  The only jealousy that is not about fear and coveting is about the Jealousy of God.  We are to not just be true, but to love God with all of our hearts, souls, minds, and strengths.  All of it.  God is a Jealous God who wants us to divide all of our attentions to Him.  After all, Jesus paid all of His attention to us. That is what I finally realize today.  We as Christians are to be Jealous for the Lord, because He is Jealous towards us.  That is what true love is all about.

I Have a Testimony

My Testimony:

Here is my testimony:

Hello, I have been writing a testimony about my life. I first became born again in 1994. It has been an interesting journey. I thanked God and still do, thank Him for saving me. My life has had many ups and downs. My testimony will be like many Christians who have been diagnosed with an emotional disorder. 

I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder on February 19, 1994. I was at first diagnosed with depression because of what has been going on with me. Within a week or two, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was actually relieved. For a long time, I felt like I was going crazy. I had suicidal thoughts almost on a daily basis. My personality changed with my moods. My relationships with others suffered. My grades went down. I would walk out of class and oftentimes, I wouldn't make even show up for class. Not long before, I had never walked out of class unless there was an excuse such as a medical emergency. My grades were decent-I was on the honor roll. I graduated in the top 5 of my high school class. I was a happy 18-year old who enjoyed going to college. Life was good. However, I didn't know that depression during those days would be a precursor to my worst year ever.

Life became a total wreck. By this time, people began to turn on me. I have thought of elaborate ways that I wanted to die. I had a rough time dealing with what was going on around me. I began to obsess about a particular guy that I got along with. All of a sudden, a little crush turned into an obsession. I made a fool out of myself. The worst part of it was that others knew as well. Everything seemed negative. I did care about what others think. But then, I started praying a long prayer to God. What I didn't realize is that that prayer would be the beginning to a journey that would forever change my life. Things haven't improved, not until September 10, 1994. I prayed to ask Jesus to come into my heart twice on advice of a friend. I wasn't sure if He heard me. But that day was a miracle in itself. I didn't think I was well-liked or had many friends. But then, I realized who my real friends are. I am thankful that God showed me who they were that way. I really needed them then. 

What I didn't realize was that I needed God. It was around 1:00 or so that afternoon and I went up to a friend's room. I knew that she was a born-again Christian and I started talking to her about all of my problems. I met two other girls, one of them was a freshmen at that time. I literally cried a river and poured out my heart. I was a lonely young woman. I knew it. Then she asked me if I believe that Jesus died for me and that if I believed that Jesus rose on the third day. I told her that I did. Then she mentioned the word "friends". It clicked. That was all I remember from that question. However, I have told her that I will get saved later on that I wanted to go somewhere. Her warning was to me that tomorrow was promised to no one. These were not her exact words, but that is what she meant. I am so glad that I did not hesitate. I prayed with her to receive Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I saw a mental picture of cherub-like angels on a blue background. It was a mental painting almost. Everything seemed different. Things were brighter. One of the girls remarked that I even looked different. God took my pain away. He had started me on a new journey. And for that I praise God. Life is better. I still have my share of problems, but all Christians have their share of problems. Christians will be persecuted for their faith. I went from barely reading the Bible from reading and studying the Bible daily. I prayed mostly in need, but I pray daily. I have changed. Within a year from that day, I transferred to a new school and graduated two years later. I have learned how to handle my problems better. Over time, I have grown to depend on God daily. I have become interested in different things. I have become a different person. I have become wiser, and I thank God for that.

"I Won't Let You Fall" (Lean on Me) by Helen Miller

Jesus said if you lean on me
Jesus said you can lean on me
Jesus said if you lean on me
And I won’t let you fall, if you just lean on me
Jesus said if you - lean on me
Jesus said if you just - lean on me
Oh! Jesus said you can - lean on me
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall if you lean on me
Oh! I will bare your burdens if you - lean on me
Oh! I’ll bare your burdens if you just - lean on me
Oh! I know how to bare your burdens you can - lean on me
I won’t let you fall, oh; I won’t let you fall if you lean on me
And when the load gets heavy you can - lean on me
Oh! When the load gets heavy you can - lean on me
Oh! When the load gets heavy you can always - lean on me

I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall if you lean on me
Oh! Jesus said if you - lean on me
Oh! Jesus said if you just - lean on me
Oh! I heard Jesus say you can - lean on me
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall if you lean on me
Instrumental Only - Music
Drums, Tambourine and clapping only this section
You don’t if to worry if you - lean on me
Oh! You don’t have to worry if you - lean on me
Oh! You don’t have to worry if you just - lean on me
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I promise not to let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I promise not to let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I know how to hold you; I won’t let you fall
I know how to hold you; I won’t let you fall
If you just lean on me; I won’t let you fall
You can just lean on me; I won’t let you fall
In the midnight hour; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
When a load get heavy; I won’t let you fall
When your load get heavy; I won’t let you fall
I’ll bare your burdens; I won’t let you fall
I’ll bare your burdens; I won’t let you fall
Drums, Tambourine and clapping only this section
My yokes is easy; I won’t let you fall
My burden is light; I won’t let you fall
I don’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
When everybody else is gone; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you; I won’t let you fall
No! I won’t let you; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
Never, never let you fall; I won’t let you fall
If you lean on me; I won’t let you fall
If you lean on me; I won’t let you fall
I’ll be there; I won’t let you fall
I’ll be there; I won’t let you fall
I’ll never leave you; I won’t let you fall
I’ll never forsake you; I won’t let you fall
Come on and lean on me; I won’t let you fall
Come on and lean on me; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
Oh, No! I won’t let you fall
Oh, No! I won’t let you fall
Come on and give Him praise – Instrumental Only Section
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
Oh, No! I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
I won’t let you fall; I won’t let you fall
You can depend on me; I won’t let you fall
You can lean on me; I won’t let you fall
You can trust in me; I won’t let you fall if you lean on me
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Oh thank you Lord!
Thank you that I got somebody to lean on
Thank you that I got a leaning post
Thank you that I’m not on my own, oh Lordy - Hallelujah

Random musings

I am now listening to Sia's "Chandelier".  This has been my song this past weekend.  I get to ramble and ramble on.

Seth Rollins is so fine.  Too bad he has become a mere distraction.  I never thought I would have a crush on him.  I sound so rude, didn't I?  Sorry, but he is still fine.

I am okay with my weight.  However, I have to admit that I need to do more work before 9AM all day.  Sure, I'm not a soldier, so to all soldiers, thank you for your service.  You are the reason why our country is still free.  Thank You.

I am still listening to Sia's "Chandelier".  Where have I been?

Today is Easter.  Thank You, Jesus, last, but certainly not least.

Modern songs (2008-2017)

 "Chandelier" by Sia

 "Take Me to Church" by Hozier

 "Thy Will Be Done" by Hillary Scott and The Scott Family

 "Just Be Held" by Casting Crowns

 "Trust in You" by Lauren Daigle

 "Go Get It" by Mary Mary

 "Intentional" by Travis Greene

A continued break

Taking another break.  I will be back tomorrow.

Prophecies about Jesus

"From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life."
Matthew 16:21

"When they came together in Galilee, he said to them, “The Son of Man is going to be delivered into the hands of men."
Matthew 17:22

"He then began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and after three days rise again."
Mark 8:31

"They were on their way up to Jerusalem, with Jesus leading the way, and the disciples were astonished, while those who followed were afraid. Again he took the Twelve aside and told them what was going to happen to him."
Mark 10:32

"Who has believed what he has heard from us?1
And to whom has hthe arm of the Lord been revealed?
2 For he grew up before him like a young plant,
iand like a root out of dry ground;
jhe had no form or majesty that we should look at him,
and no beauty that we should desire him.
3 kHe was despised and rejected2 by men,
a man of sorrows 3 and acquainted with4 grief;5
and as one from whom men hide their faces6
he was despised, and lwe esteemed him not.
4 mSurely he has borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
nsmitten by God, and afflicted.
5 oBut he was pierced for our transgressions;
he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
pand with his wounds we are healed.
6 qAll we like sheep have gone astray;
we have turned—every one—to his own way;
rand the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted,
syet he opened not his mouth;
tlike a ulamb that is led to the slaughter,
and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent,
so he opened not his mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away;
and as for his generation, vwho considered
that he was cut off out of the land of the living,
stricken for the transgression of my people?
9 And they made his grave with the wicked
wand with a rich man in his death,
although xhe had done no violence,
and there was no deceit in his mouth.
10 Yet yit was the will of the Lord to crush him;
he has put him to grief;7
zwhen his soul makes8 an offering for guilt,
he shall see his offspring; he shall prolong his days;
athe will of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.
11 Out of the anguish of his soul he shall see9 and be satisfied;
by his knowledge shall bthe righteous one, my servant,
cmake many to be accounted righteous,
dand he shall bear their iniquities.
12 eTherefore I will divide him a portion with the many,10
fand he shall divide the spoil with the strong,11
because he poured out his soul to death
and was numbered with the transgressors;
gyet he bore the sin of many,
and makes intercession for the transgressors."
Isaiah 53:1-12

9 I, John, your brother and companion in the suffering and kingdom and patient endurance that are ours in Jesus, was on the island of Patmos because of the word of God and the testimony of Jesus. 10 On the Lord’s Day I was in the Spirit, and I heard behind me a loud voice like a trumpet, 11 which said: “Write on a scroll what you see and send it to the seven churches: to Ephesus, Smyrna, Pergamum, Thyatira, Sardis,Philadelphia and Laodicea.”
12 I turned around to see the voice that was speaking to me. And when I turned I saw seven golden lampstands, 13 and among the lampstandswas someone like a son of man,[d] dressed in a robe reaching down to his feet and with a golden sash around his chest. 14 The hair on his head was white like wool, as white as snow, and his eyes were like blazing fire. 15 His feet were like bronze glowing in a furnace, and his voice was like the sound of rushing waters. 16 In his right hand he held seven stars,and coming out of his mouth was a sharp, double-edged sword. His face was like the sun shining in all its brilliance.
17 When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said: “Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. 18 I am the Living One; I was dead, and now look, I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.
19 “Write, therefore, what you have seen, what is now and what will take place later. 20 The mystery of the seven stars that you saw in my right hand and of the seven golden lampstands is this: The seven stars are the angels[e] of the seven churches, and the seven lampstands are the seven churches.
Revelation 1:9-19