My overall view on music

I just have a deep love of music.  Who doesn't, but somehow music connects me to my problems and my emotions like nothing have.  I am trying to express why music is something I get lost in.  I sometimes listen to music when the mood hits me.  However, music makes me normal.  Being bipolar, there is always this line between what is normal and what is not.  It bridges things like emotions, thoughts, and what is going on in the world.  I am so glad that there is such thing as music.

I miss the 90s

 "All Night Long" by Faith Evans

 "Can We Talk" by Tevin Campbell

 "Candy Rain" by Soul for Real

 "The Things You Do" by Gina Thompson with Missy Elliott

 "Like This and Like That" by Monica and Mr. Malik

 "Freak Like Me" by Adina Howard

Sorry for yesterday.

I was and will be on a break until tomorrow.  I am okay and I will be back.

I Miss the '80s...that's is what great music

 "Don't Stop The Music" by Yarborough & Peoples

 "Just Be Good To Me" by SOS Band

 "Saturday Love" by Cherelle ft. Alexander O'neal

 "Love Come Down" by Evelyn Champagne King

 "I Feel For You" by Chaka Khan

 "Set it Off" by Strafe

"It is Well" by Kristine DiMarco and Bethel Music

Verse 1

Grander earth has quaked before

Moved by the sound of His voice

Seas that are shaken and stirred

Can be calmed and broken for my regard

Chorus

And through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

And through it all, through it all

It is well

And through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

It is well with me

Verse 2

Far be it from me to not believe

Even when my eyes can't see

And this mountain that's in front of me

Will be thrown into the midst of the sea

Chorus

Through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

Through it all, through it all

It is well

Through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

And it is well

It is well

Bridge x3

So let go my soul and trust in Him

The waves and wind still know His name (repeat last line during 3rd run)

It is well with my soul

It is well with my soul

It is well with my soul

It is well it is well with my soul x3

Chorus (softly slowly)

Through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

Through it all, through it all

It is well

Through it all, through it all

My eyes are on You

And it is well with me.

Unpopular Wrestling Opinions 3

I liked the Main Event Mafia, especially when they hosted "Impact" that one night.

I think that Willow is such a cool gimmick; it would be even cooler if Jeff Hardy (Brother Nero) would disguise himself that way on WWE TV (provided they will sign).

While she is a great heel, at one time I thought Maryse was a two-move wonder in the ring; she just wasn't very good.

Hopefully, it was sweet and to the point.

Reflection about music

Lately, I have been posting up videos with lyrics in them.  You will find good music no matter what label, whether or not it is independent or mainstream.  That is why I like to look for good music in sites like aurgasm.us.  Music is music.  Some of it I will listen to hundreds of times in my lifetime; there are songs which I wish to avoid.  I have posted up songs that I like.  I guess that we like what we like could very well be true.

"Walking Into Sunshine" by Central Line

Baby I was thinking what did you give me that was really good
And the answer came loud and clear
All the love that you could give
It was love love love love
That you gave to me you gave it to me
It was love love love love love
That you gave to me
You gave it to me
And you really loved me the way you touched me
I'm so glad you're mine…
Gotta believe me don't deceive me
It would surely break my heart if we fell apart…
You gave me love you gave me love
You gave me love you gave me love
Baby I was the for you …love you had to give me
From the first time I met you there I knew that you would be my destiny
It was love love love love love that you gave to me you gave it to me
It was love love love love love that you gave to me you gave it to me
And the way you love me the way you touch me
You sent shivers down my spine I'm so glad your mine
Gotta believe me don't deceive me
It would surely break my heart if we fell apart…
You gave me love you gave me love
You gave me love you gave me love
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo
Wooh-ooh-ooh-oohoo

"There is a lily in the valley" by John P. Kee and VIP Seminar Mass Choir

Verse 1:
There's a lily in the valley(in the valley)
Bright as the morning star
There is a lily in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
There is a lily in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Amen(3x)

Verse 2:
Joy it's in the valley(in the valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found joy in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found joy in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Amen(3x)

Verse 3:
Somebody found jesus in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found jesus in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found jesus in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Amen(3x)

Verse 4:
Somebody found peace in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found joy in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Somebody found love in the valley(in the
valley)
Bright as the morning star
Amen(3x)
Lyrics found <a href="http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/john-p.-kee-lyrics/lily-in-the-valley-lyrics.html">here</a>

How the hair color would look on me...finally

Well, I dyed my hair this morning.  It was yes, burgundy in color.  However, it wasn't like what it looked liked on the box or in the pictures I posted up for the past couple of days.  I guess I was expecting a lighter hue than what I have.  I have jet black hair and well, while I like the color, it ended up a very dark cherry color.  That is like a cross between an onyx with a red tinge and a cherry brown.  But like I have said, I am digging the hair color.

I believe this is what how burgundy would look on me

How would I look with burgundy hair?

I am a person with curly hair, dark skin, and naturally black hair.  I wonder how I would look with burgundy hair.  I would like to know this.  I just feel like I needed a change.  I have thought about this for a while now.  I have wondered that what were to happen if I were to have a tongue ring or a nose ring.  I have just wanted to but didn't have the courage to, experiment.  Right now, having burgundy hair is just a way to experiment.  It isn't a radical experiment, but I believe that I could pull it off.

Reflections about my own life and being my age

Hi.  I am at an age where some may consider me middle aged.  Maybe true.  I can go far back enough to recall not having so many followers but had just friends.  Friends, true friends, may be a rarity but at least they are one of a kind...or two.  I had to go back too and wonder now if there are things I wish I had the foresight to do then that I want to do now.  Maybe I am not so young, but I am not yet in the stage where I am no longer in my prime years.  I am no longer a teenager, but I didn't grow up listening to 70s music as a child.  I grew up on the 80s and 90s and even they seem like simpler times.  John Cena probably was in diapers when Ric Flair and Steamboat had their first match. Seeing a celebrity walk down a parade because he or she had the number one show on television. Some of my favorite gadgets had nothing to do with websites.  Thankfully, there were no such thing as revenge porn, or videos where people are getting beat up posted online daily.  Life was simpler to me at least.  Sadly, there have always been criminals, racism, poverty, and politicians being all talk, sure. However, I remember being bullied in school and getting beaten by my parents.  By the time I was a teenager, all was forgiven.  Anyways, I turned out okay.  Thankfully, my mother never had to see me being exposed by a "friend", an ex, or have her expose me as a "bad kid" for all of the world to see.  I got hurt on the playground, kids were active, and grown ups didn't seem so agitated and so "PC" all the time.  I guess because I'm not a mom, I wouldn't know about worrying so much about my kids' safety.  But I do remember as a kid, my mom and dad were there and they did worry, and they did watch out and they did discipline my brother and me.  But life in general seemed different like almost yesterday.  I am just a grown up who had probably thought that this reflection of my life is like many others, is telling the truth, good, bad, and ugly.  But I was hoping that things would never change, but as I get older life is seen differently, but truth and memories, will always stay the same.

"Spirit of the Living God" by Vertical Church Band

Spirit of The Living God
Spirit of The Living God
We Only Want To Hear Your Voice
We’re Hanging on Ever Word 2X

Come And Speak To Us O Lord

Spirit of The Living God
Spirit of The Living God
We Only Want To Hear Your Voice
We’re Hanging On Every Word 2X

Because When You Speak, When You Move.
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek

When You Come In The Room
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek
You’re Changing Everything
Spirit of The Living God
Spirit of The Living God
We’re Leaning Into All You Are Everything Else Can Wait
Spirit of The Living God
Spirit of The Living God
Come Down And Breath Upon Our Hearts
Come Down And Have Your Way

Because When You Speak, When You Move.
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek

When You Come In The Room
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek

When You Move, You Move All Our Fears
When You Move, You Move Us To Tears 2X
When You Fall, We Fall On Our Knees
When You Fall, We Fall At Your Feet 2X

Because When You Speak, When You Move.
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek

When You Come In The Room
When You Do What Only You Can Do
It Changes Us, It Changes What We See And What We Seek

Spirit of The Living God
Spirit of The Living God
We Only Want To Hear Your Voice
We’re Hanging On Every Word 2X

"Every Praise" by Hezekiah Walker

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Sing hallelujah to our God

Glory hallelujah is due our God

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Sing hallelujah to our God

Glory hallelujah is due our God

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Sing hallelujah to our God

Glory hallelujah is due our God

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise every praise is to our God.

Sing hallelujah to our God

Glory hallelujah is due our God

Every praise every praise is to our God.

God my Savior

God my Healer

God my Deliverer

Yes He is, yes He is

God my Savior

God my Healer

God my Deliverer

Yes He is, yes He is

God my Savior

God my Healer

God my Deliverer

Yes He is, yes He is, yes He is, yes He is

Yes He is, yes He is, yes He is, yes He is

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

All of my worship, every praise,

Every praise, every praise

When you see me dancing, every praise

Every praise, every praise

When you see me shoutin', every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, to our god

Is to our God

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

All of my worship, every praise,

Every praise, every praise

When you see me dancing, every praise

Every praise, every praise

When you see me shoutin', every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, to our god

Is to our God

Every praise is to our God.

Every word of worship with one accord

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

All of my worship, every praise,

Every praise, every praise

When you see me dancing, every praise

Every praise, every praise

When you see me shoutin', every praise

Every praise, every praise, I got to praise you, every praise

Every praise, every praise, I got to thank him, every praise

Every praise, every praise, He's been so good, every praise

Every praise, every praise, He's been so kind, every praise

Every praise, every praise, every praise, every praise

You must be born again

You Must Be Born Again

3 Now there was a man of the Pharisees named hNicodemus, ia ruler of the Jews. 2 This man came to Jesus1 jby night and said to him, k“Rabbi, lwe know that you are a teacher come from God, for no one can do these signs that you do munless God is with him.” 3 Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is nborn oagain2 he cannot psee the kingdom of God.” 4 Nicodemus said to him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?” 5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born qof water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. 6 rThat which is born of the flesh is sflesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.3 7 tDo not marvel that I said to you, ‘You4 must be born uagain.’ 8 vThe wind5 blows wwhere it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”

9 Nicodemus said to him, x“How can these things be?” 10 Jesus answered him, “Are you the teacher of Israel yand yet you do not understand these things? 11 Truly, truly, I say to you, zwe speak of what we know, and bear witness to what we have seen, but zyou6 do not receive our testimony. 12 If I have told you earthly things and you do not believe, how can you believe if I tell you heavenly things? 13 aNo one has bascended into heaven except che who descended from heaven, the Son of Man.7 14 And das Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man ebe lifted up, 15 that whoever believes fin him gmay have eternal life.8

For God So Loved the World

16 “For hGod so loved ithe world,9 jthat he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not kperish but have eternal life. 17 For lGod did not send his Son into the world mto condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. 18 nWhoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not obelieved in the name of the only Son of God. 19 pAnd this is the judgment: qthe light has come into the world, and rpeople loved the darkness rather than the light because stheir works were evil. 20 tFor everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, ulest his works should be exposed. 21 But whoever vdoes what is true wcomes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.”

Rest and relaxation

I will be back as soon as tomorrow.  I am just out of it tonight.  I will be writing a brand new entry as soon as maybe tomorrow.

Unpopular wrestling opinions 2

I wasn't so sure about how talented Dana Brooke was, but she is an okay wrestler.  She has potential, but in my opinion, she seems a bit green.  She needs to go back to NXT as she looks to not be ready for the big time as far as wrestling skills go.

I don't think that Velvet Sky is THAT bad.  I know there are wrestlers who are more talented.  I just don't see what is so bad.  

I don't think Eva Marie is the worst wrestler as she hasn't been in the wrestler for years and years.  She seems to want to learn and wants to improve.  She actually knows how to sell, so I guess that is a plus.  Her showing against Asuka was better than anything Rosa Mendes has done.  No offense.

I actually like the PG Era because of its overall focus on wrestling as compared to the Attitude Era, in which there were things I think was becoming excessive such as the cursing and the overall misogyny.  I know that it was an era many fans want back, but I think that the Attitude Era would have run its course had it lasted longer.  I like the way the women wrestlers are being used, since they have a Divas Revolution.

I think that Roman Reigns, while stagnant on the mic, is a decent overall wrestler, though he doesn't have as extensive a move set as say, Seth Rollins or Kevin Owens. He is the better wrestler, and less arrogant and insulting than The Rock, but has the charisma of a doormat and the ring presence of a flashlight.

What is so crazy or loony about Dean "The Lunatic Fringe" Ambrose?

I also believe that AJ Styles is quite boring, even without Gallows and Anderson.  He is a talented wrestler who was much better in TNA. Is "Beat up John Cena" the best they can come up with for him?

Talented as he is, I find Sami Zayn boring.  He may be a nice guy and he is a good competitor, but due to the writing, he is nothing without Kevin Owens.  

I find the New Day and much of the Tag Team Division cringeworthy.  I also feel bad that the cruiserweights are about as over as Alberto del Rio at his less charismatic phase (which was a lot of the time) and the Divas before the revolution.  

As athletic as she was, Kelly Kelly was not a good wrestler, no matter how many people put her over, like Beth Phoenix.  She may, or may not, be a nice person and very pretty, but Maryse should never wrestle again, no matter how good she is as a heel.

In the Ellsworth and Ambrose v AJ Styles Saga, I find that the real heel is Dean Ambrose, not AJ Styles.

Unpopular Wrestling opinions

Eva Marie isn't the worst wrestler or the worst thing that happened to wrestling. She really wasn't the worst wrestler either in her defense. Eva Marie is a heat magnet, I realize because she is such a bad wrestler who is quite untalented, she can learn to improve.  There are people in the business who haven't shown any growth in the ring and they have never been the heat magnets that she was.  I am not the biggest Eva Marie fan not by a stretch as she is a bad wrestler, but when is not the worst person or the biggest scumbag in the business either, as far as I know.  Maybe she could be a wrestler or a valet.  Until she improves, she should never, ever lace up a pair of boots (for now).

Braun Strowman is really not that bad as he is quite competent and is used properly.  Give him time to improve and he will or could be the next Big Show.

It is a rather strange way to express this, but the most overrated person in professional wrestling is Vince McMahon. Where would he be if he didn't make wrestling corporate using the cruelest means? He would actually love the concept of using the words "professional wrestling" instead of "sports entertainment". He is overrated as a promoter for the simple fact that while he is smart enough, I don't think he knows how to market his own ideas. He would be another carny promoter who stole from others and stolen other's ideas. He marketed other people's ideas and stolen from other promotions. That is what makes him not that great a promoter. There, I feel better.

On the subject of TNA. Dixie Carter should have never been a promoter and she deserved to have her funds cut off. TNA should have been owned by a Dave Prazak or even a Billy Corgan sooner. This woman is one of the worst promoters to ever fund a wrestling organization. She was even worse than David McClain. Granted, some of the best wrestlers came from TNA like Styles, Samoa Joe, and even Kurt Angle to an even lesser extent. I guess it is trying to be WWE-lite. Why? It is not all that. I on purpose boycotted the WWE, especially the Attitude Era for much of its content. She is an even worse promoter than Vince McMahon, even when it comes to female wrestlers. Like President Trump, she too needs to lay off of twitter. Jeff and Jerry Jarrett made a mistake to sell the company to Dixie Carter, but I guess they had a reason. (Please correct me if I am wrong about the Jarretts selling to Dixie.  If it is the case, why considering how Jeff was utilized after the sale.)

I have watched both promotions because of what is available on television and that makes me a total hypocrite yes. I think that the sexiest wrestlers on the WWE are Roman Reigns, Finn Balor, and Seth Rollins. I now wish I have never confessed these crushes. Sorry. I was silly enough to believe that they were really truly the only games in town. By the way, whatever happened to Shimmer and CZW? I wish I had watched content from those promotions. Thank goodness for Youtube, Japanese wrestling, lucha libre, and other organizations. Sadly, I never got to watch ECW back in the 90s.

Until the last few years, I found Kane boring.

Sable wasn't the best, but I found her competent enough to at least face Luna Vachon, who made her look that way

I personally believe that the real total package is actually Kevin Owens.

Asuka is quite overrated compared to when she wrestled as Kana.

Kelly Kelly was bad, but as a wrestler, Maryse was worse.  Has she ever been carried to a good match?

Candice Michelle and Leila El were in the end becoming good wrestlers despite their lack of years of experience, yet many people jump on Roman Reigns despite his own lack of years of experience.

Baron Corbin is a decent enough wrestler who I no longer consider dull, but a solid heel with more potential than I gave him credit for.

"Young Girl" and "Lady Willpower" by Gary Puckett and The Union Gap

"Young Girl"

Young girl, get out of my mind

My love for you is way out of line

Better run girl

You're much too young girl

With all the charms of a woman

You've kept the secret of your youth

You led me to believe you're old enough

To give me love

And now it hurts to know the truth

Young girl, get out of my mind

My love for you is way out of line

Better run girl

You're much too young girl

Beneath your perfume and your make-up

You're just a baby in disguise

And though you know that it's wrong to be

Alone with me

That come on look is in your eyes

Young girl, get out my mind

My love for you is way out of line

Better run girl

You're much too young girl

So hurry home to your mama

I'm sure she wonders where you are

Get out of here

Before I have the time

To change my mind

'Cause I'm afraid we'll go too far

Young girl, get out my mind

My love for you is way out of line

Better run girl

You're much too young girl (repeat to fade)

"Lady Will Power"

Lady Willpower, it's now or never

Give your love to me and I'll shower

Your heart with tenderness endlessly

I know you want to see me but you're afraid

Of what I might have on my mind

One thing you can be sure of

I'll take good care of your love

If you will let me give you mine

Lady Willpower, it's now or never

Give your love to me and I'll shower

Your heart with tenderness endlessly

Did no one ever tell you the facts of life

Well there's so much you have to learn

And I would gladly teach you

If I could only reach you

And get your lovin' in return

Lady Willpower, it's now or never

Give your love to me and I'll shower

Your heart with tenderness endlessly