Yay me!

The "key" to prayer

I know that I tend to post videos quite a bit.  The truth is, I have much to offer, but I don't know how to offer.  That is a problem.  We just don't know how.  I had to learn that truth today.  There is always an answer to a question, even if the answer is no.  At least it is an answer.  There is nothing more frustrating, and more rude, than having no response at all.  Thankfully, it isn't that way with prayer.  Now I feel guilty. I should pray more often.  Maybe since prayer is deep, respectful communication, now it is the time that I use that faith and just overcome the shyness and talk.  Start praying.

"ET" by Katy Perry

You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil?
Could you be an angel?

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say, be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

[Pre-Chorus]
You're from a whole 'nother world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

[Verse 2]
You're so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

[Pre-Chorus]
You're from a whole 'nother world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

[Bridge]
This is transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch so foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Sunday Morning Rapture

I saw the film this morning on Youtube. I personally would recommend it. I also felt that the tribulation will come before the rapture of the church as written in Matthew 24. I personally looked but cannot find evidence that a pretribulation rapture would appear, but I could be wrong on that. I know that those who are truly obedient, enduring, repentant Christians who do God's will will be raptured. That is what I believe. However, where can I find evidence on a pretribulation rapture. I know that believers who are dead will be raptured first and those who are remain will also be raptured so as those who will not be left behind.

I have wondered if evidence of the post tribulation rapture is also evident with the stories of Noah's Ark and Lot and most of his family. Only they were among the few who were saved. I wonder if that will happen to believers for God doesn't change. Anyways, I thought about that because much of the church was left behind in this movie, including those of the cloth. This guy thought he could buy his way to Heaven while a good Christian girl who thought she was saved was left behind. I found the movie inspiring yet scary at the same time. I wondered that if Jesus were to return, what if I wouldn't be ready? I know that those who only profess salvation are not ready will not enter Heaven according to Matthew 7. I pray and hope that it wouldn't be me. In the movie, the people were all crying and such after being found they were not truly saved. My prayer is that I will be ready. After watching this movie, I have come to realize that all of us need to see with we are truly of the faith.

My relationship with movies and entertainment

I love movies.  I used to fall in love with movies.  Now I have a hard time falling with love with most movies. I am not sure if it is because of my faith or it is because of my thoughts.  Either way, there are parts of my life that I love and look forward to, and there are things that I miss.  My love of movies and entertaining myself has become a struggle.  I have lost a lot of joy in my life.  I have at times felt pigeon-holed into this little world where movies and watching them have become something that has taken over me.  I miss a lot about life as a younger person.  It was as if I didn't have a care in the world.  Now, I wish I didn't have any cares in the world, but the thing is, reality kicks in.  I am not the young, invincible person anymore.  I am now the near middle-aged woman who has a lot of energy still, but I have become wiser and more careful.  My how times have changed.

Sobering day

Today was, or rather is, a sobering day.  Ever since yesterday I have come to realize that even if the world loves me, I have to love me.  Self-respect and self-love I have learned are keys into losing weight and being healthy.  That is my goal for today, staying healthy.  I have allowed other things to take charge of me instead of me taking charge of my own health.  I am humbled by today's experience.  I realize that I need to remind myself of today's experience.  Life is really too short and every day that passes means a life that could be even shorter.  If I could be wise, then I could be healthy.  I believe I can do this for myself with a little bit of hard work.

My life now and my future

What have I done with myself?  All I know is that complacency might as well be my middle name.  I realize that over the years, I wish to explore.  I am here to write that it is a good thing to explore.  It helps us to grow as humans.  I have yet to continue to explore, therefore I haven't felt so great about myself.  I haven't lived up the expectations that I have set up for myself.  I wanted live like everyone else and be like everyone else.  I wanted that car, that purpose, and that clear plan for myself.  Now I have to admit I have no plans for myself and that is ironically not the scariest place.  What is scary is that I have not lived up to a standard that I should I have lived up to and it is not just my own standards, but God's standard.  I always seem to complain.  I live in a fantasy world.  The real world is a scary place, I guess.  But what do I know?  When was the last time I lived it?

Roses Are Red - The Mac Band feat. The McCampbell Brothers

I'll do anything to prove to you I care for you

Even if I have to catch a falling star.
'Cause to me you are the flower of my heart.

Girl
I love you for being you
And the special way you always touch my heart
Girl
I'll be there if ever you call

I'll be your adrenalin all and all!

Roses are red
violets are blue
baby

Well
if there's anything I'm certain of
it's love you!

You're the only one that's ever been this good to me

That is why I always want you in my life.
And when I think about the things that you have done for me

It explains why you're the apple of my eye.

Girl
I trust you and all you do

And I'm so thankful that you've opend up your heart.
And I'll be there if ever you call

I'll be your adrenalin all and all!

Roses are red
violets are blue
baby
...
Roses are red
violets are blue
baby
...

Everybody sing'n say: Yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
baby
baby

Sing it like you never say: Yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah

baby!

Girl
I love you just for being you ...

Roses are red
violets are blue
baby
...
Roses are red
violets are blue
baby
...
Roses are red
violets are blue
baby

"Words" by Anthony David and India Arie

I believe that heaven must be like this
Ray of sunshine kissed upon your skin
Just say you love me
Make my day go good
Pot of gold at the end of a rainbow

Can't tell you nothing you ain't already heard
No matter what I say it's nothing but words
Just let me prove to you what I know is real
Let me express to you the way that I feel

(India:)
I believe that love is synonymous
With heaven, such a sensual bliss
The way you touch me, makes this life so good
A reward at the end of the long road

Can't tell you nothing you ain't already heard (Already heard)
No matter what I say it's nothing but words (Nothing more than words...hey)
Just let me prove to you what I know is real (So real)
Let me express to you the way that I feel (Show me the way that you feel)

(AD:)
Fairytales can be real if you just believe
Got my mind made, I don't plan to leave
Cause you were made for me
Simple that may be
Why be complex
loving you is so easy

Can't tell you nothing you ain't already heard (Already heard)
No matter what I say it's nothing but words (Nothing but words)
Just let me prove to you what I know is real (It's real..Yea yea)
Let me express to you the way that I feel

Can't tell you nothing you ain't already heard
No matter what I say it's nothing but words
Just let me prove to you what I know is real
Let me express to you the way that I feel

Can't tell you nothing (I ain't already heard)
No matter what I say (It's nothing but words)
Just let me prove to you what I know is real
Let me express to you the way that I feel

"Indescribable" by Kierra Sheard

"Indescribable"

[Verse 1:]
From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

[Chorus:]
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You place the stars in the sky and You know them by name,
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable, awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim,
You are amazing God

[Verse 2:]
Who sees lightning bolts and tells them where they should go
Or sees heavenly store houses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

[Chorus]

Incomparable, unchangeable,
You've seen the depths of my heart and You love me the same,
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

[Chorus]

[Vamp:]
You are amazing God [5x]

Faith

I believe that the Lord has set me on the right path.  I had a word from Phillippians 4:19.  He SHALL supply ALL of my needs.... this morning.  My needs have been heard.  Faith is a strong thing, and a beautiful thing.  I was and still am in need, but I stand on the promise that He has heard me.  Now I truly understand what faith is all about.  All I had to do was demonstrate it.

Help me with my doubt and unbelief

I wondered if my faith is strong enough.  I even wondered if I prayed the right words.  Either way, doubt is frustrating.  I guess I am a doubting Thomas.  I have little faith as of yet.  I even asked God to help me with my unbelief.  It is frustrating as I mentioned earlier.  I am not in a good way, not like I should be.  I am alone in this and I don't know who else or where else to turn.  This situation in my opinion requires strong faith, but with even a little faith, one can remove mountains.  I am not sure if my faith could move a grain of sand or a pebble much less a mountain.  Jesus, help me with my unbelief.  I need Your help.

"4Ever More" by Anthony David, Algebra, and Phonte

The first time I heard this song was on a soul/R&B station.  I have loved this song since.  If I have loved this song, then how come I downloaded this song only to not play it all that much.?  I am weird that way.  Why did I do that?  I guess because I have downloaded so many songs that I just didn't take the time to listen to it.  I love this song because of the talent in this song.  There is also that old school vibe.  It is a song about love.  I sometimes miss songs like that.  However, even today, there are talented artists who have substance and who sing (and rap) as if they have substance.  A lot of today's music lack the catchy-ness and substance that is out there.  It is a shame that this song and these artists are so underrated..  Great song and great video.

"Flaws" by Kierra Sheard

Why is it that we all have to see ourselves only through a reflection?  Can mirrors be deceptive?  I do see a lot of flaws within me.  I can definitely relate to this song.  I have had this problem since I was a kid.  Why can't we really see ourselves physically without a reflection, whether it is a selfie or through video?  When if it is not us?  Do the mirrors show who we truly are or do they magnify who they think we are in reality?  I know that God created me and love who I am.  Why should I trust a world who doesn't love anyone?  Everyone has their opinions?  I am reminded of this because of the above video.  I am flawed, this I know.  But because of that, I am beautiful.  The sad thing is, I have no idea how this relates to me.  I live in a world where people are beautiful in spite of our flaws, not because of them.  That is something that never made much sense.  I have been listening to this particular song since Friday and I still have a hard time getting it to register.  Either I have no self worth or I am just naive of the world.  A reflection is like a shadow.  Is it really us?  Why does it follow us?  I guess because of the existence of both.  I have a hard time seeing myself in that way.  Is it because I feel guilty about gaining so much weight?  Why?  I want to see myself as attractive and I want to know why it is hard for me.  Am I making it hard?  No, I just need wisdom.  The good thing is, all I have to do is ask.

Loving oneself

Help me to see myself as beautiful, Lord.  I do tend to look down on myself.  When others tell me that I look more than flawed, I have a hard time believing it.  Would I feel this way if I were thinner? I wonder.

Being a flawed human being

I haven't always liked myself.  Sometimes I don't think I'm a good person.  However, I realize none of us are outside of the Lord.  My self-worth I believe comes from God.  If only I had realized that before.  Oh well, there is no use crying over spilled milk.  There is also no use to cry about the flaws that I have.  The truth is, we all have flaws.  Some of us don't think so because they seemed to think they are above others, but all of us are flawed, sinful beings.  He loved the flawed, sinful being enough to die on the cross in shame.  However, the Father rose Him from the dead.  He was raised up in glory.  Hallelujah to that.  Maybe that is what I need to think about whenever I am feeling down about those flaws that I have.  Nobody, and I mean, nobody is perfect, but with God we can be perfected since we are His creations.  He does indeed love us in spite of our flaws.

Faith, Family, and Fan Fiction?

Lately what I have doing is keeping busy, except for a few instances.  I want to know about infidelity. However, I don't want to waste my time because of my "curiosity".  It is about knowing fact from fiction.  Maybe writing fan fiction would help me.  Maybe not.  I find fan fiction interesting yet it seems so..I don't know.  But who am I?  I never wrote any fan fiction before.  Even if I did, would this help me with my thoughts?  Would this make my thoughts worse?  Would they help me to differentiate between what is real and what isn't in my head?  That is the problem I have.  I learn to appreciate a lot of things more such as the value of faithfulness and value of communication.  I get that I am not married, but if I were, I would love to be faithful to my future husband and not be shy about telling him the truth about anything.  I have never been married but ironically these thoughts have not scared me from doing a search for a relationship and praying for a husband.  I have thought at times what it will be like to have both a husband and children and also make that a Christian one.  I have had thoughts about this and they have given me comfort.  They have lessened my curiosity and finally it has taught me that I need to be more prayerful and think on things that are true, pure, honest, just, lovely, and of a good report.  If only I had thought about this sooner.

Soap operas then and now

I just miss watching television these days.  In the age of a "lack of " online technology, good story lines and great acting was all that was needed it seems.  Okay, there has always been technology and there are a lot of behind the scenes people, but there is something that seems to be lacking today. I recall the ratings being so much higher back then.  They were in the double digits.  I wish they were in the double digits again.  I just watched "Edge of Night" and 1980's soaps.  Wow!  If only soaps today were this good.  There are good actors and good drama, but like I said, something is missing and it is hard to pinpoint. I wish I knew why things have changed today.

Forgive me for being so lazy. This is my updated resume. I just hope it is good enough for law school.

Gail Gerald
3907 Elm Court
Mullins, SC 29574
Email: gailgerald2@gmail.com
Phone:
Home phone: 843-464-8480
Cell number: 843-468-6922

EDUCATION
Francis Marion University, Florence, SC
Bachelor of Science, Mathematics,   1997
o Mathematics GPA, 3.0
• Graduate courses completed:  M.Ed. Secondary Education-Mathematics  2003-2004
• Undergraduate courses completed: Set Theory, Mathematical Models and Applications, Probability and Statistics, 1995-1997
• Minors: Chemistry and Physics Courses Completed:
o Organic Chemistry
o Physics I and II
o Nuclear Physics

BUSINESS AND FINANCIAL SKILLS
• Managed Money Market accounts such as creating budgets and filling out tax returns
• Promoted and sold products in person and online, such as short stories and cosmetics
• Software: MS Excel and QuickBooks

WORK EXPERIENCE
Tutor, Grades 5-12, 2007-2008; 2014-present

Marion County School District No. 2  
P.O. box 689
Mullins, SC 29574
 Worked as a Substitute Teacher, 2000-2001
 Assisted in teaching students in grades 1-12 and assisted Special Education Instructor in helping students.

Francis Marion University
5130 E. Palmetto Street
Florence, SC 29506

 Test Proctor, Mathematics Department, 4th Floor, 2000
• Supervised test takers in mathematics
• Assisted tutors and instructor in day-to-day activities
• Tutored at the Francis Marion University Tutoring Center, 1997

INTERESTS
Interest in learning about Politics, law, and religion
Currently improving knowledge of both Spanish and Portuguese.

Psalm 51; "Create in me a clean heart"

3

Have mercy on me, God, in accord with your merciful love;
in your abundant compassion blot out my transgressions.

4
Thoroughly wash away my guilt;
and from my sin cleanse me.

5
For I know my transgressions;
my sin is always before me.

6
Against you, you alone have I sinned;
I have done what is evil in your eyes
So that you are just in your word,
and without reproach in your judgment.

7
Behold, I was born in guilt,
in sin my mother conceived me.

8
Behold, you desire true sincerity;
and secretly you teach me wisdom.

9
Cleanse me with hyssop,* that I may be pure;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

10
You will let me hear gladness and joy;
the bones you have crushed will rejoice.

11
Turn away your face from my sins;
blot out all my iniquities.

12
A clean heart create for me, God;
renew within me a steadfast spirit.

13
Do not drive me from before your face,
nor take from me your holy spirit.

14
Restore to me the gladness of your salvation;
uphold me with a willing spirit.

15
I will teach the wicked your ways,
that sinners may return to you.

16
Rescue me from violent bloodshed, God, my saving God,
and my tongue will sing joyfully of your justice.

17
Lord, you will open my lips;
and my mouth will proclaim your praise.

18
For you do not desire sacrifice* or I would give it;
a burnt offering you would not accept.
19
My sacrifice, O God, is a contrite spirit;
a contrite, humbled heart, O God, you will not scorn.

20
*Treat Zion kindly according to your good will;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.

21
Then you will desire the sacrifices of the just,
burnt offering and whole offerings;
then they will offer up young bulls on your altar.

Updated resume from 2015

Gail Gerald

3907 Elm Court

Mullins, SC 29574

Email: gailgerald2@gmail.com

EDUCATION

Francis Marion University, Florence, SC

Bachelor of Science, Mathematics,   1997

o   Mathematics GPA, 3.0

·         Graduate courses completed:  M.Ed. Secondary Education-Mathematics  2003-2004

·         Undergraduate courses completed: Set Theory, Mathematical Models and Applications, Probability and Statistics, 1995-1997

·         Minors: Chemistry and Physics Courses Completed:

o   Organic Chemistry

o   Physics I and II

o   Nuclear Physics

        COMPUTER SKILLS

·         Computer Software: , Windows Vista, Windows 7, upgraded to Windows 10, MS Word,  and Adobe Reader

CLERICAL SKILLS

·         Type 47 wpm

·         Proficient with the use of adding and graphic calculators

·         Proficient with using general office equipment: fax machines and software, terminals, all-in-one and laser printers, personal computers

·         Taking down messages and answering phones

·         Performed inventory of office materials

BUSINESS AND FINANCIAL SKILLS

·         Management of Money Market accounts,  including budgets and filling out tax returns

·         Promoted and sold various products in person and online, such as short stories and cosmetics

·         Software: Quicken Basic and Microsoft Money

WORK EXPERIENCE

·         Tutor, Grades 5-12, 2014-current

·         Tutor, Elementary school, Grades 5-6 , 2007 -2008

Marion County School District No. 2   

P.O. box 689

Mullins, SC 29574

§  Worked as a Substitute Teacher, 2000-2001

§  Taught students in grades 1-12. 

§  Assisted Special Education Instructor in helping students.

Francis Marion University

5130 E. Palmetto Street

Florence, SC 29506

                Test Proctor, Mathematics Department, 4^th Floor, 2000

• Supervised test takers in mathematics classes
• Assisted tutors and instructor in day-to-day activities

                Tutor at the Tutoring Center, 1997

·         Tutored Physics and Mathematics

                Student Assistant, Cauthen Educational Media Center, 1996

·         Checked out educational cassette tapes

·         Delivered, picked up, erased, cleaned, and checked out audio-visual equipment

·         Assigned classes and individual students to works areas to watch videos for Chemistry and other classes

Volunteer and Miscellaneous Experience, 2005-present

§  Research physics, chemistry, and statistics courses

§  Learning about politics, psychiatry, and religion

§  Languages:

§  Fluent in English

§  Currently studying Spanish and Portuguese, 2014-2015

§  Studied French, 2000

                                     Politics and social issues

§  Law and Legislation

§  Taxation and military spending

§  Crime and Poverty

§  Racism and other societal ills 

                                       Interests

·         Travel to foreign lands and learn about different cultures

·         Legal issues such as positions in public  claw, advertising, and corporate law

                                      Miscellaneous Computer Skills, 2000-present

·         Software downloads

·         Use of computer and electric  equipment installation

·         Computer troubleshooting        

                                       Volunteer work, 2000-present

o   Donated to charities such as the Red Cross and the Salvation Army

o   Cooked meals and assisted the elderly in other tasks

o   Taking care of animals, including dog sitting

References will be available upon request.

Is this a good or bad letter to send to a future law professor?

Hello,

I have just created an account in the LSAC website.  I am interested in attending law school as a perspective student.  I am not so sure where to begin.  I feel that I may be disqualified for a number of reasons, but I believe that I can do it?  I know and realize that I need to network and increase and update my skills.  Unfortunately I have never been a paralegal, nor do I have any experience.  All that I have are a bachelor's degree, a resume, a cover letter, a spotty job history, and some graduate experience.  I majored in mathematics and have taken graduate courses in mathematics education.  I need to know how to network, apply for law school, network, and pay for law school.  The networking thing is very important.  I don't have a lot of support and I am in need of support.  I don't even know how long it will take to gain enough support and update my skills.  I realize that I have limited experience and limited skill and I am over 25-35.  Where should I begin? How do I write a statement?  Should I consider another major?  I also admit to a lack of self confidence which would probably hurt me more than anything.  Should I even consider a law degree and if so, how long would it take for me to improve myself so that I will receive that law degree and become a lawyer?  Your help would be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

Gail N. Gerald

"Somebody's Bigger.." from the "Preacher's Wife" soundtrack

Somebody bigger than the Earth is round
Bigger than the saddest frown
Bigger than the brightest smile
And longer than the longest mile

Somebody bigger than the biggest fight
And darker than the darkest night
Bigger than the biggest gun
Cause he's the only shining sun cmon

Who made the mountains
Who made the trees
Who made the rivers that flow out to the seas
And who hung the moon in the starry, starry, starry sky

Chorus:
Somebody bigger
I know I know he's bigger than you and I
My God is bigger
Somebody bigger
He's bigger, he's bigger than you and I
He's bigger than you and I
My God is, my God is oh

Now who made the flowers bloom in the spring, yeah
And who writes the songs for the robins to sing uh
And who sends the rain when the Earth is dry
I know, I know, I know
Somebody bigger yeah
Than you and I
Somebody bigger than you and I
Bigger than you and I

He lights the way when road is long
Keeps me company with love to guide you
He walks beside you just like he walks with me

When I am weary, and filled with despair
Who gives me courage to go on and on and on from there
And who gives me faith
That will never, never, never, never, never die
Somebody bigger yeah
Somebody bigger than me and you
Bigger than you and I
Somebody bigger
My Lord is bigger than you
Bigger than you and I

He lights the way when the road is long
Keeps you company with love to guide you
He walks beside you just like he walks with me

Somebody bigger than you and I
Bigger than the open sky
Bigger than the tallest tree
Bigger than the deepest sea
Somebody deeper than the desert sands
Bigger than the tallest man
And phatter than the phattest phat
Bigger than a Shaq attack

Repeat Chorus

"Remember the Time" by Michael Jackson (RIP)

Do you remember
When we fell in love
We were so young and innocent then
Do you remember
How it all began
It just seemed like heaven so why did it end?

Do you remember
Back in the fall
We'd be together all day long
Do you remember
Us holding hands
In each other's eyes we'd stare
(Tell me)

Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Do you remember
How we used to talk
(Ya know)

We'd stay on the phone at night till dawn
Do you remember
All the things we said like
I love you so I'll never let you go
Do you remember
Back in the Spring
Every morning birds would sing

Do you remember
Those special times
They'll just go on and on
In the back of my mind
Do you…

God's Judgment

I hope that that is not the reaction I get when during Judgment Day, or rather, I don't wish to be judged at the Great White Throne of Judgment.  It will be a rather sad time to say the least. My goal is to be a salt and a light to the world.  The sad truth is that only a few will "make it" to Heaven.  I hope that I will be judged at the Judgment Seat of Christ.  The Judgment Seat of Christ is for true believers in Christ.  I hope that I have lived my life pleasing God and not the world.  I prayer is that I am not an adulteress who has adhered to the world or to the world system.  Why cheat on God with someone who doesn't love You?  I don't want to be an enemy of the Lord, and my hope is that no one will either.