"Slow Down" by Bobby V.

I saw you walking
Down on Melrose
You looked like an angel
Straight out of heaven, girl
I was blown away by
Your sexiness
Now all I have to do is catch up to you

Slow down I just wanna get to know you
But don't turn around
'Cause that pretty round thing looks good to me
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Now turn around
And bless me with your beauty, cutie

A butterfly tattoo
Right above your navel
Your belly button's pierced too just like I like it girl
Come take a walk with me
You'll be impressed by
The game that I kick to you
It's so thorough and real

Like a flower fully bloomed in the summertime, you're ready
To be watered by this conversation, hope you're ready
I'm in awe cause you shine like the sun
Let me be the one to enjoy you (enjoy you)
Let's kick it girl

So slow down I just wanna get to know you
But don't turn around
'Cause that pretty round thing looks good to me
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Now turn around
And bless me with your beauty, cutie

Slow down I just wanna get to know you
But don't turn around
'Cause that pretty round thing looks good to me
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Now turn around
And bless me with your beauty, cutie

Oh baby you know by now that I want you bad
I'm floating on thin air I can't come down
Cupid hit me already damn
Now I can't leave till seven digits are in my hand, my hand

Like a flower fully bloomed in the summertime, you're ready
To be watered by this conversation, hope you're ready
I'm in awe cause you shine like the sun
Let me be the one to enjoy you (enjoy you)
Let's kick it girl

Slow down I just wanna get to know you
But don't turn around
'Cause that pretty round thing looks good to me
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Now turn around
And bless me with your beauty, cutie
[x2]

You, I don't wanna tell you
Oh, looks good, oh, looks good
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Cutie
Slow down I just wanna get to know you
But don't turn around
'Cause that pretty round thing looks good to me
Slow down never seen anything so lovely
Now turn around
And bless me with your beauty, cutie

"Just When I Need Him" by Sisters

Father,

This beautiful is a reminder that my life can be inspired by a song.  I prayed about my life and what I needed for You.  I thank You for I see what I am in truly in need of.  I have been obsessed with losing weight, but being on Weight Watchers has done much to expose what has really gotten wrong with me.  I find myself being compared (by me, of course) to other people.  I even found myself looking in the mirror at times more so than I once did.  Now that I finally realize that I truly have an obsession, how do I overcome decades long issues with issues of love for self, weight loss, health, and guilt.  I want to be considered attractive by a man and get married and have children.  I have trouble seeing myself in a positive light as I have often felt guilty about gaining weight over the years.  For a long time, I have had a set time or a set number of calories, rules and regulations, and weight number.  I knew that something wasn't right, but it has finally taken until tonight to confirm what I already knew.

Not only do I need to get healthy by losing weight, I need to love and respect myself.  I have struggled to do that, for I have been self-conscious about my weight and my appearance.  I found myself being fun of and feeling that I wasn't well liked.  I have lately had moments of when food became a compulsion and a relief from the cares of my life, which included a lack of awareness of true hunger, compulsion and anxiety, and caring so much about what other thought.  I just stopped caring.  I wanted to lose the extra weight, but whenever things went bad, I purchased candy, cakes, cookies, soda, and chips.  I was fooling myself into thinking that I am a young woman who can still eat anything that I wanted without consequence.  Well, that turned out to be a lie.

I am a clinically obese pcos sufferer with diabetes, emotional issues, and anxiety and have remained so for the last ten years and that is another root of why I feel like I am in a hurry to lose weight.  Another reason is that I am over 40.  I know that it will take a while longer to lose weight after that age, but deep down, there is this correlation that I missed out.  I also realized that because I thought I missed out.  I was thin, desired by men, never been kissed, never been married with children, and never going to the beach in a bikini before 40, I have missed out.  I am going through a midlife crisis I guess.

I need help.  How do I overcome this?  Maybe it is not I who has to do it, for Your Word says that you do the work.  I thank You that it finally took this day to see that I have a problem.  I also thank You for forgiveness of sin, for I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I also thank You in advance for Your answer or answers to my prayer.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

"Hold On" by Wilson Phillips

That is what I call a great song of encouragement.  I need great encouragement when it comes to my health and my walk with God.  I know that this song was recorded more than 25 years ago, it still rings true today.  It is a song about not giving up.  Hang in there.  Don't give up.  I love this song as the reader can tell.  It speaks the truth like few, if ever, songs that touch my heart.  It is a song without curse words or degrading lyrics.  It is a song about no matter what one goes through, push through and  be strong.  I am so thankful that this song has been recorded, period.

Not a godly nation

Lately, I have wondered what should this flag and this country represent?  God is not a representative of this nation, but a nation should be a godly one.  We are not a godly nation right now, but I have noticed that with godly leadership, there has been more peace in the land.  I guess I need to read 1 and 2 Kings.  It is also interesting that we are to pray for those in authority that we may live peacefully in the land.  I am sorry if I have misinterpreted the Scripture.  My point is, we are all Americans no matter who the leader is.  We are not living in a godly nation.  We are not a Christian nation.  That is a sad fact, but it is true.

"Kissing Strangers" by DNCE

I don't listen to many songs, but I dare say that this is a guilty pleasure song.  Many songs of the last 10 years have less originality than they usually do.  I will take the guilty pleasure called DNCE, who I hope will last longer.  I realize that long life is promised to no one.  Just some wisdom that I have imparted for myself...

"Don't Take It Personal" by Monica

I often write lyrics under the video, but not this time. This song is just what I have going through these past few days.  I am and have grown tired of the daily grind.  Now that I am back, I realize that if I wish to accomplish something, then I just have to do just that, push through it.  Sometimes, it takes pushing through pain to accomplish something.  I hate pain as I don't have such a high thresh hold but sometimes even I have to go through pain.  It makes all of us stronger, whether it is physical, mental, or emotional.  I have been exhausted lately.  That is something that I need to learn  to fix or at least deal with.  It's life. Deal with it.

At the moment,

At the moment, I am taking a break.  I hope to make another entry tomorrow.